My prologue

Love

2012-01-27T05:16:00.000-08:00

The Sulaiman's :D I love you guys :)

January

2012-01-27T05:02:00.000-08:00

I've been missing for like 89282 years already from this blog thigy world :D And I am proud that I can live without blogging lolwhut. nevermind. So anyway , my last post ? ages ago. So in 3 more days , or 4 or wtv , january will soon be over. and I can say that January kinda hectic and fun month for me and my friends and family :) so lets sum it all up in one post :)

So early January I celebrated my birthday. my sweet 18th birthday with family and treats from my friends and all :) Thanks guys ! I spent most of my time doing the doorgifts for maria's aqiqah and also going out with friends :) and also watching dvds and online-ing anddddddd nothing much. HAHA Then long mariko and babymaria balik. hectic as hell. going out almost everyday ! or is it actually everyday ? I dont know.. HAHA and friends came to my house and hangout here and there and all. and yes , doorgifts.

I cant even remember what I did -.-' this sucks ! too many things man ! But what I know is that I had fun doing it :) and yes , laptop broke down. and now okay already. shit happens , always. but nah , I'm over it. what else? I'm going to us this 29 :) WHICH IS LIKE 2 DAYS MORE :DDDDDDDDD SO EXCITED :D No , packing belum lagi. I dont know what to bring ): so sad ):

today's maria's marhaban. lolwhut. it was fun :) tomorrow is the aqiqah. I know there are going to be 300++ people coming. I cant deal with that ........ HAVOC MAN !

and then sunday ... NEWYORK BABY :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

so yeah , january rocks ! Thank you Allah for this beautiful month :) Have a nice day peeps ! :)

2012-01-27T02:43:00.001-08:00

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soulmate

2012-01-17T18:26:00.001-08:00

"one thing that will never change and be apart is soulmate"

I love you, iylia ;-)

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what a week

2012-01-17T18:24:00.001-08:00

So yes i think i lost the sense of blogging now that i have no laptop since dia benggong n rosak.again, im blogging using phone.

Anyway i've been busy the whole week. On saturday my friends came over. Was it saturday?or sunday ? Okay i cant remember. Anyway theyre helping me with the doorgift. Then long mariko and baby maria are here already. :-) other than that,i am just busy. Ohyeah met iylia on monday fr lunch and it was definitely awesmazing !! :-)

And yes i am sick now. Demam. Practically the whole house is not well. What to do. Other than that, i thnk everythng is fine. New york in 1 more week hoyeah !!!!

Have a nice day peeps !

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new phone

2012-01-14T10:47:00.001-08:00

First of all, thankyou mum and dad fr my new phone. Infact i am blogging with my new phone yay !!

So anyway i've been busy lately. Doing what ? Doing nothing. Yeap. I will not work now cos i am going to newyear exactly 2 weeks frm now. And long is coming back tomorrow. And nan and fiqah is coming to my house tmrw to help me with the doorgift fr aqiqah ths 28. And i am meeting Iylia ths monday. She changed her phone too !! Haha :-)

Anyway i am going to new york ths 29 of January InsyaAllah and i am very looking forward for it. And oh on 27th i got appointment for my retainer and I swear i want that day to come fast. Living without the retainer is hell. Esp when you just take off your braces. Haha !! What else ? Oh ya my laptop brokedown. And so i sent it to the centre already and will be done before ths 28th.

And yes, on 13th of january, my bestfriend nano just turned 18 !! Happy birthday !! And it's official that safina is my new wife yay !! Haha and ofcourse my 4th months with my british boy. I love you xoxo

Well yeap byk perkara yang terjadi. Haha anyway have a good day people ! :-)

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Opinion

2012-01-09T07:07:00.000-08:00

Malaysian and politics <----- sucks. I heard that anwar ibrahim is free now. First of all , this is MY opinion. and yes , this is the FREEDOM OF SPEECH. yes , there is such thing as freedom of speech. Whatever it is , I am not in anyone's sides as for me politics are disgusting. but however , I live in malaysia. and so I have the right to write or to give out my opinion on whats going on now. from what I see , there are 2 sides. Let that 'sides' remain as PNC. I have 5 points.

first point. Dont bash each other. I get it. you are PAS or DAP or wtv shit that is but DO NOT BASH. what the hell is wrong with you? Its individual. If you dont like the government or whatso , shut the hell up. If you still dont like it , get the hell out from Malaysia. No government , no you. no school no NOTHING. so please , respect. You can vote whatever you like or whatso , but dont bash people. dont bash the government. dont bash the opposition. JUST DONT. with that , it shows that you aint that mature enough to even talk about politics ! who are you? this goes to the school kids. who the hell are you? You know nothing about politics. The only thing that you know is that the basic. You dont know whats inside of politics. YOU JUST DONT. so stop acting like you know everything about politics. You dont even know everything about addmath or whatso and now you are talking about politics ? yes , you can say that I dislike politics so much and all thats why I'm like this BUT NO. I choose not to care about it THAT much like you do. I am fucking 18. I know whats wrong and whats right. and by bashing people , bashing the government or the opposition wont make you a smarty ass. even if you are 40 or whatso. now that you are not even legally 18 , so shut the fuck up. You act like you know everything in politics , but you dont. I repeat you dont. stop bashing each other. Unless you work with the government or the opposition , please , do talk. if not , zip up !

second point. The politicians itself. Whatever you game is , think about others. Ni tak. balik balik muka kau dekat berita muka kau kau kau ! eh babi bosan sial tengok case kau masuk keluar mahkhamah. macam sial. Tak malu ke ? Tak malu ke nak berdebat nak cakap besar everytime masuk berita ? NO PEOPLE WONT FUCKING RESPECT YOU IF LIKE THAT. Cakap besar orang respect ? please. no. You dont even earn Allah's respect ! so please politicians , mind your words. Mind whatever you are doing cos people are watching you. even the slightest thing you buat orang akan judge. Yes , dont judge people. dah habis tu kalau kau dok tayang muka kau dekat tv and cakap besar pastu satu hapak tak buat , memang lah orang bising. c'mon , UMNO or not UMNO. all the same. You dont deserve any respect. Malaysia's politics sucks big time. Thats the truth. Too many lies , too many propagandas and all , how can you work like that ? How can you make malaysia like really really 1 malaysia? pfft you , as a politician , should show some respect towards each other. You got problems , you settle it in a good way. dont involve the court or whatso. but now , konon nak ADIL. lolwhut adil kepala batu. Whatever you do , just do it in a good way. People are watching.

third point. This goes to Anwar Ibrahim or Najib or whatso. The government and the opposition. Im being open. STOP FIGHTHING OVER SOMETHING THAT IS USELESS. Stop making yourself look stupid. Nak tubuhkan BERSIH bagai. c'mon whathehell is wrong with you !?! If you're that good , Tun Mahathir wouldnt want to kick you out ! If you're THAT good , none of these will happen. Yes , if and only if. If you tak kurang ajar dengan Mahathir dulu , I believe you'd be a great man. If you tak sukhati bapak tukar from PAS to UMNO like it was nothing , I dont think this will happen. hoyeah , I love history. You entered UMNO hoping that one day you'd be the PM. I guess Mahathir knows better. If you're that good , you wouldnt even be in a court ! I guess that explain pretty much isnt it ? If you're that good , people wont kick you. If you're that good , people wouldnt curse you. If you're that good , people wont talk bad about you. I believe that the government and the opposition got their own games , but whatver that is , do not make yourself stupid.

fourth point. WE ARE IMPORTANT. Rakyat penting. Dont take us for granted. apa kau ingat rakyat suka alih alih berita pasal politic ? mau pecah TV tu kalau dah hilang sabar. c'mon , our opinions adalah sangat penting. Tanpa rakyat , hah takdenya nak berjaya itu ini. sapa nak bayar cukai if bukan rakyat ? so please , think. Kerajaan terjejas , rakyat also terjejas. You mentadbir negara bukan suka suki je. kalau macam tu budak budak habis spm pun boleh tadbir. You tadbir the country in a right way so that the future generation tahu what to do and all. Not fighting. not arguing over stupid matter. MAKE UP YOUR MIND. You are teaching and showing the next generation how to administer your country ! You want your people's respect , then do something good to earn our respect man !

fifth point. KEEP IT CLEAN. JUST KEEP IT CLEAN. No lies , no rasuah no nothing . keep it clean. we're based on Islamic rules and all so I've heard and I believe lies , rasuah and all bukan part of it. so keep it clean. kalah menang that is normal. Keep it clean.

whatever I dont care. My point is actually if you are not one of the politicians , then shut up. Dont act like you know everything. dont bash people's opinion and all. JUST DONT. Jangan disebabkan politik kau tak pasal pasal buat fitnah and all. dont. If that someone taknak anwar jadi PM , so let it be that way. takpayah kau nak cakap dia betul dia salah. kau sapa ? If dia tak sokong anwar ke sokong ke , kau sapa nak salahkan dia ? cermin diri tu dulu. apa ? dia tak sokong anwar dia bukan islam ? kau sapa nak kafirkan dia ? FIKIR SIKIT. Jangan dok main cakap. if you suka ke tak suka anwar ,then mampos kau. jangan bash orang lain punya pendapat. jangan nak perli2. mampos dia lah nak sokong sapa. Jangan taksub sangat dengan politik. perangai kau dari form 1 tak habis2 dengan politik. tak bawak mati lah pun ! Gosh , you and politics boleh pergi mati man. And yes , I support government. But that doesnt mean yang aku sokong apa government buat semua. There are certain things yang mcm sial jugak. so shut the fuck up. Scholarships semua tu , tu government kasi. rumah kau apa semua tu , takde kelulusan kerajaan , haram kau nak dapat rumah. so think twice. Appreciate la sikit. kau nak sokong sapa hal kau. but JANGAN kutuk party lain. Kau PAS ke UMNO ke , jadilah apa kau nak. tapi jangan menjatuhkan maruah orang lain.

K.bye.

THANKS EVERYONE :)

2012-01-09T07:04:00.000-08:00

Thank you for the wishes guys :) Really , I appreciate it ! Through phone , text , facebook , email , twitter , skype. Really thanks ! May Allah bless you guys :) To those yang nyanyi and all , really I APPRECIATE IT BIG TIME :D heee Thanks. Nak senaraikan nama memang sampai tahun depan tak habis. and so just thanks guys. really thanks. I had fun just by reading all the wishes. Thank you again.

May Allah bless all of you :) Have a nice day peeps :D

kawan belanja HAHA

2012-01-09T06:59:00.000-08:00

and so on the 8th itself asyraf belanja TGIF :D He knws that my other steak macam ... fuck okay. and so the day itself dia belanja steak dekat TGIF :D YAY I LOVE YOU THANKS :) and so yes , I had a wonderful day yesterday. the steak was super nice. and the drink also :) called twins tanya pukul berapa nak pi tutti frutti and adik was being emo sebab tak ajak pergi TGI. lolwhut go die. HAHA and so around 4 like that went back to bangi and picked up twins and muazmira and went to tutti frutti :D yes , twins belanja :D YAY :D and Again i had a great times with them really I laughed so hard :D

After that we sent asyraf home and we sang out loud inside the car. yes took lots of pictures and all. It was fun :) really Thanks guys. around 6 something baru sampai rumah and did nothing lolwhut I am so full I cant even move. LOLOLOL. HAHA It was indeed a great day :)

Thanks guys ! Love you lots :D

Birthday celebration with family

2012-01-09T06:07:00.000-08:00

and so I AM 18 :D Legal for clubs and all wohooo :D Im so happy :) so anyway a day before my birthday , le whole family went to golf club subang to celebrate my birthday :) so we arrived first. mom dad and I. so solat asar and then we had tea at the terrace and ayah main golf :) we're waiting for kakyan and kak liyana and all to come. and so we just borak2 like for 1 hour and then baru nak swimming. and while tengah nak tukar baju and all kakyan sampai :) heeee rindu ! :D and then swimming time :D Tengah2 swim ngan liyana and umar sampai :D tukar baju and I teman umar mandi. awww he is so cute :D Mandi til 7.20 and then siap2 maghrib semua and we had teh tarik lolwhut kakyan -.-' HAHA

after that we had dinner. I had steak. sangat tak sedap. I was pissed off I swear rasa nak baling steak tu dekat muka orang tu. HAHA but then its alright. borak borak took lots of pictures then around 11 baru balik rumah.

I had an awesome day , really :) and when the clock tepat pukul 12 , I AM OFFICIALLY 18 :D calls , text and all , I cant handle too much of it. HAHA Thanks family for the lovely day :) I love you guys :D

hot

2012-01-05T07:35:00.001-08:00

I SWEAR TODAY SUPER HOT OMG -.- weather why la this la ! -.-

4/1/2012

2012-01-05T07:06:00.001-08:00

So yesterday Iylia and I went to school sebab nak hantar buku. I swear Iylia is a jerk. call then suruh datang sekolah cepat cos teacher ada meeting nanti. and so I went to school just gosok gigi and basuh muka and tak mandi pun. fuck that man. And so I met her infront of lab physics while waiting for perhimpunan to be over. I SWEAR THATS THE LONGEST 30 MINS IN MY LIFE -.-t after dah habis perhimpunan , nampak teacher dah keluar then jumpa dia and she asked us to tunggu til 9.15. what? you think habis sekolah free sangat sampai nak duduk terpacak kat situ? dahlah tak mandi lagi. god. And so we did. we walked around the school and just borak2 and all :) Bliss :D and so after that tepat pukul 9.15 saya dan Iylia pun terpacak dalam bilik guru :) terus bagi buku and check and tandatangan and pi hantar dekat bengkel. Then balik :D Iylia went home with me :D

Sampai je rumah lepak lepak sat then Iylia tolong buat nama BabyMaria and I kene paksa mandi. lolwhut. and so mandi and then just lepak2 while waiting for mom to come home cos nak keluar nak breakfast dengan iylia. around 10 something mom balik and we went out :) we had our breakfast and early lunch dekat Bangi Kopitiam and just talk :) Its amazing. really , its been ages since last buat macam tu and only the two of us. AWESOME :D after that , I brought Iylia to Living depot. saja nak kasi suprise sama itu perempuan gila , sya. HAHA the moment Iylia masuk sya terus jerit and hug her :D She just stalked iylia's blog dengan bestfriend baru dia , india mana ntah. HAHAH and few mins later Iylia datang. lolwhut. HAHA Then just borak2 sat and we went to warta :) Iylia nak cari dvd. after that we went to giant and bought snacks sebab Iylia nak ... banyak songeh betul. HAHAHA. then we went back home and watched friends with benefits :) It was awesome :D Really :) after that , we watched Date night :) awesome jugak and then solat and Iylia online sat while i kacau2 dia lolwhut. HAHAHHA Called safina sebab Iylia nak cakap dengan bakal madu. eh? HAHAH yes , Iylia kasi kita kawin dengan dia. DENGAR TAK MENANTU TAK GUNA ?! HAHAHA

after that we just cuddle. uu cute. heart to heart convo and it was amazing :D Really , I can let it all out to her about everything. But salah cakap sikit je respond mesti ' tahu lah nak kawin dengan safina!' lolwhut gila ea? HAHA around 6 her dad datang and jemput. and then she forgot her babytiger. and so I decided to go to her house with sya around 8.30. and so before that I went to kedai depan to order nan tandoori and warta to bug ferrero and redwalk to take my camera. Then went back home hantar makanan and keluar pi amik gambar and jemput sya and went to iylia's house :) athirah ada also. Then sampai2 je terus hug and all and lepak dekat luar rumah je. dapat tengok bintang and bulan dengan Iylia :D aww finally ! Then just borak2 and around 9.30 baru balik :) hantar sya balik and I went home. Had my dinner. talked to safina for a while. then tidur. I swear my body sakit lol.

but overall , It was a good day. I know I cant always meet iylia everyday and all and I dont know bila lagi nak jumpa or whatso , but I am thankful. I've waited since 80292 days ago to meet her and finally , I gt the chance to meet her. Bliss. Thank you Allah. I believe good things comes to those who wait. It doesnt matter whether we're far or near or lama lagi nak jumpa each other , th most important thing is that when we see each other , thats all matter. just that and its wonderful. Thanks Iylia :) Love you :) and thanks sya :D

);

2012-01-05T06:36:00.000-08:00

Lately I've been having issue with my ownself. and I hate it. I dont I keep on losing my mind , unstable emotions and god Im so fucked up. and The only thing that can rescue me is .. Allah. Only Him can save me from all the stupid feelings , only Him can cure me , Only Him that can make everything perfect again. I dont why or what , but I can feel that I am drifting apart from him. And I am afraid. because without His Guidance , I'd be lost. I'd be on my own. I'd be alone. I'd be empty. Nothing. empty.

I dont want that. I swear I dont ever want that. Im afraid :/ I dont think people will understand. cos I myself , I cant even figure out what is this feelings and all. I have friends that can guide me and all , but still I am afraid. people changed , so do I. Im afraid I will be the old me. I dont want that. That would be hell though I am a nice person. I just dont want to commit any sin anymore.

I know the only one that I can turn to now and always Is Allah. Only Him. Not anyone else.

I want nothing but to be near to you Allah. Please guide me to the right path. Amin.

3/1/2012

2012-01-02T10:48:00.000-08:00

Hari ini sangat PENAT -.-' Woke up around 10 nak buat doorgift sekali.. glue gun .. -.-t Then just susun susun and around 2 baru mandi mehehehe :3 After that sent mak to class tafsiran and picked up asma' at her house and went to Alamanda :) Yay :D Pi sana nak cari glue gun sial tu then ... TAKDE. HABIS. I was like k. So asma' and I just hang and the went to shisha. UUU asma' dah lama tak shisha :P HAHA Then after that we went back home and drove like 140 MAN :D awesome :D while tengah drive mak call suruh amik samping ayah dekat rumah and hantar dekat rumah kawan dia tu. I was like oh shit dah lah jauh lagi and so kene speed up again. Hantar asma' and went back home and pergi amik the samping and hantar dekat mak :) Then mak suruh pi kedai beli sayur .........

I did. After That I went to Living depot and bought the stupid gluestick and all. Then balik rumah around 6 and just rest for a while and rasa nak masak lol whut and so I cooked. yay :D Then dinner and mandi semua. Baru je lepas solat sya dah call cakap nak datang. okaylah kan. and so we did the doorgift baru 60 and esok sambung lagi. around 11 I sent sya back home but before that we went to tutti frutti and then went to sya's house. lepak sat dengan her sister then went back home and solat semua and call safina :) niceeee :D

and now blogging while eating rambutan cos I am so hungry. okay bye have a nice day peeps :D

I miss chu

2012-01-02T10:46:00.000-08:00

Hi , I miss you , Always :') Welcome back to school boy :D Love you :)

busy

2012-01-02T10:42:00.000-08:00

IM GONNA BE SO BUSY THIS MONTH :O I think :O

Thank you

2012-01-02T10:32:00.000-08:00

Thank you mom and dad for always being there for me. for always help me in so many ways. though I am very hard to handle and very complicated , thank you for always being patient with me. For everything. Thank you for everything. Money , food , home and everything. YOU ARE SIMPLY THE BEST :) I LOVE YOU.

Thank you siblings for always .... make my life upside down -.-t I am happy though. Thank you for always have faith in me , trust me and all. Thank you for giving me the chance to be part of you guys. Thank you for always backing me up. Thank you for always protecting me from the cruel world. Thank you for always being there in times of need. I love you.

Thank you my best friends. that is my true friends as well. You know who you are. Thank you for always putting up with me and my moods. Thank you for everything. Thank you for always being there. Thank you for late night calls. Thank you for making me laugh , and smile. Thank you for always pissing me off as well :D -.-' Just simpy thank you. I love you guys very much :)

Thank you boyfriend for always being there. Thank you for loving me for almost 4 months. Thank you. these 3 months surely the best and I am happy :) Thank you for always putting up with my moods and emotional breakdown. Thank you for everything. You know me best. Thank you for the 9 years friendship. I love you and that is all matter.

Thank you enemies for making me much more stronger person. seriously your existence made me stronger than ever ! :D Thanks for that ! :D and baby , people throw rocks to those who shinee :) so zip up :D

Last but not least , Thank you Allah. for this life. this amazing life. Thank you for everything. I love you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSY :D

2012-01-01T05:56:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday syakir :D Have a blast and Happy New Year :D I miss you cousy ): Awatlah duduk jauh sangat kat penang ): eh penang ? HAHA May Allah bless you :) I love you cousy :D

first day of 2012

2012-01-01T05:52:00.000-08:00

I woke up late lolwhut HAHA Around 1 and then sya paksa me to go out with her and nan. and so I did. mandi and all and around 2.30 keluar. Went to Alamanda and we watched Jack and Jill. We had our lunch at RASA since I wanted to eat something Malaysian lolwhut before going to NY :D haha after that just borak-borak while waiting for the movie and then 4.30 baru masuk wayang.lolwhut I fell dekat stairs wayang tu time nak pergi toilet dengan nan. bapak sakai memalukan -.-t AAHAHA

The movie was funny yeap I enjoyed the movie :) After dah habis tu jalan jalan just window shopping and we went to Big Apple and had some donuts :) It was awesome. After that around 7.30 sya's mom picked us up and sent me back home. Then I called Iylia and she picked up omg happy ! :D Talked for like 15 minutes then byebye. she's at PKNS :D lolwhut. Told her about the plan for my birthday and aqiqah and pasal nak breakfast together and all. HOPE JADI OMG I MISS HER SO MUCH ): Then mandi and all and just online.

Pretty much a good start. was having moodswing early in the morning but well , lets just spare that out shall we ? :) It was a good start for 2012 :) Thank you Allah :)

Have a nice day peeps ! :)

Days

2012-01-01T05:48:00.000-08:00

7 MORE DAYS TIL MY BIRTHDAY AND 28 MORE DAYS TIL NEW YORK WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

azam 2012

2012-01-01T05:39:00.000-08:00

Apa ? azam 2012 ? Takde ;D haha no lah selalu azam mesti nak study betul2 nak rajin2 and jadi tu lah ini lah but seriously this year takde except for .. few things :D

1) To be a better person , as always :) I know I can do it. I changed to a better person last year and I know I can keep that up. even to a better person this year. If there's a will , there's always a way :) and so yeah , I want to be a better person InsyaAllah :)

2)To achieve something great. I dont know what but yeah I know I will be going to U and everything and I hope nothing but for the best. and I hope to get Law. cos I really wanna do law ! :D

I think thats all my azam 2012. lol sikit kan but pewww susah nak buat. seriously HAHA

well , HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS :) HAVE A GREAT 2012 :D

Goodbye 2011

2011-12-31T06:37:00.000-08:00

And so 2011 is almost over. plus few mins more ! So many things happened in 2011 and all of them , precious :) The start of new friendship and the other way around , new rules and old rules neglected and much more. To sum it all , 2011 was indeed a great year for me and my friends :) I met seramai and a bunch of cool kids and we're awesome :D My last great year was 2008 and 2009. and now I can feel that kind of feelings of having a good year again :) 2011 , a great year. Bittersweet memories , they taught me about life. I found the true meaning of friendship. I found a great lover. Getting back with all my old friends. What a year to cherish ! I dont want 2011 to end but life goes on. Who knows 2012 is going to be as amazing as 2011 huh ? or maybe even BETTER :D so yeah pretty much what I've been doing this year is ....

January ! ;D

My birthday month and it was awesome :D Had my sweet 17 party and invited bunch of cool people to come over and it was a blast ! :D went to Melaka with the family. and long and mariko ada :) School was awesome because its the first month and I gt new friends and we're even closer this year :D WHICH IS AWESOMER :DDDDDDDDD and yes , I am legally 17 and I can drive ! Yes , awesome ! :D The starter of my year is always awesome :D

February ! :)

First test ever time form 5. I failed miserably and I dont give a shit :D getting closer and closer to seramai and all and no , that time takde seramai lagi. I was placed next to the girl I hate lol nayli but It went well I survived sitting next to her. Half of the year weyh ! HAHA And I did nothing much this month. But I know its a blast. I used to bring camera to school and randomly toko pictures :D And yes , That's beyong awesome :D as I got lots of my friends' photos everywhere and every each of it sangat precious ! :D

March :D

March was awesome because its the month where seramai tercipta:D dekat lab chemistry -.-' omg what HAHA and yes , monthly test every month but yeah it went well :D this month is indeed a friendship month and it was AWESOME :D and also , I found my soulmate , Yes I do :) Iylia syahirah :D and a bunch of awesome people in my group :) heee

April ! :D

Indeed an awesome month ! we did suprise party for Iylia and we went to PWTC for pameran buku :D and then Iylia and I and shazlyn , we participated the SIR and it was awesome :D REALLY ! Lifetime experience man ! :D

May :D

We celebrated ngah's birthday and went to i forgot where and it was awesome :D Got my midterm this month so I didnt go out that much but still , I had fun in school ! :D

June :D

Sleepover !!! Yes , seramai came and sleepover as it was holidays and mom and dad went to paris :D so , what to do ? HAHA yes , I hang out a lot this month and guess what ? No regrets :D

July :D

Went to MOSTI and SEMINAR masterskill dekat UKM with all the angry birds and guess what ? we're famous cos of that ! :D met bunch of friends from other schools and it was awesome :D

August :D

Bulan puasa :) and yes , most memorable ones :D Went berbuka with the family , cousins , nuranians , murnians , and seramai :D It was awesome ! and no , this year puasa tak kena gantung okay ! HAHA

September :D

RAYA RAYA RAYA AND TRIAL -.-' But still , my raya was AWESOME :D

October :D

Graduation day and Jamuan PPIM. though we are not PPIM HAHAHAHA :D It was awesome. School is almost over ):

November :D

Ready for SPM :) Study group here and there and last day of school before spm ! Which is sad ): But everything was awesome :DDD

December :D

The end of everything. school life and all. yes , last day 8 dec 2011 dekat sekolah. God , I miss school. I miss my friends. I miss my life before spm ): Yes I do ): But december , you are awesome :D hangout with my friends and all. Did nothing but enjoy myself to the max :D

Yep , thats my year. INTERESTING YEAR :D Im going to miss 2011. yes , I know I will. I love you 2011. Thank you for everything. Thank you Allah for a wonderful year. Thank you.

Goodbye 2011. and hello 2012 :)

31/12/2011

2011-12-31T06:31:00.000-08:00

So today I woke up late :) yes , after berapa ribu hari bangun awal lol what. Woke up around 1 cos got nightmare :/ please taknak lagi nightmare macam sial tu. Maybe thats the way Allah ingatkan that time is limited and dont waste it on sleep. So yeah. Decided to grab lunch at kenny rogers but tak tahu nak ajak sapa but then I saw asyraf's tweet saying he is hungry. and so I thought why not ajak dia? and so I did :) I waited for mum and dad balik from kenduri which is... ...... congrats I am 100 years old -.-t around 3 baru balik and im so starving I can eat the car -.-'

So I drove fcuk laju cos nak pick up asyraf lagi and then sampai je alamanda straight pergi kenny rogers and ordered chicked and macaroni triple ! :D asyraf mula2 nak spaghetti je last last amik half chicken ! oh my kalah I youuu :P HAHA Then borak and all god we love to stare at people's shoes :P HAHA After that just jalan2 masuk parkson then pergi mph bought babylion and babytiger and then .. asyraf kata kakak dia nak jumpa I -.-' lolwhut nervous. eh kenapa nervous ? HAHAHAH Then met kakak asyraf and hang for a while then went home :)

I went to sya's place and hang there for a while and then I sent her to hair profile cos dia nak buat rambut. so yeah I sent her and went back home. yeah balik je got phone call from kakyan asking to pick her up at Ubud Spa.okay. I did. and I was fucking pissed off with my dad. and everyone. yay.

pretty much my day. It was awesome actually. really. Goodbye 2011.

:/

2011-12-31T06:30:00.000-08:00

Aqilah , please dont be who used to be. Please dont. even how hard this life is , please dont change to the old one. Please dont. Allah is there to guide you. Your true friends are there. You family also. So please dont. :/

guess what?

2011-12-31T06:23:00.000-08:00

I THINK i dont need you. but I know deep down I do. But you see, you are nothing but just part of me , my memories and my life. I tried to make things simple but... I cant. You keep on pushing me , asking me to do thing that I dislike the most and I really dont give a fuck about it. really. Because for me , if you're here or not here , ITS THE SAME. SAME. and really I've reached that point of 'not giving a shit' long time ago but lately , I've been trying to make things work. as daughter and father. But sorry , I cant.

Its just me. I tried. Atleast I did. Its too late for you to .. make things better though nothing is never too late. But in this case , it is. I was a kid back then. I needed you. but not anymore now. Back then , You werent there when I needed you the most. You dissapoint me. I need someone to show me how cruel the world is. But you werent there. The only one that always be beside me is mom. always have and always will. Why cant you play your part before ? Now its too late. I am 18 to be. and Its time for you to let me go on my own. Dont try to control me now. It wont work as I wont allow you to do so. Its really too late. My heart is closed. Its awkward.

Im sorry. I love you. I do. I'll be there. I'll be there to take care of you , I promise I will. cos you are important to me. I know I will love you as much as I love mom. But to be good , to .. have that dad-daughter convo or whatso , NO. Its a no no. I dont know why. Im better off alone. I am better alone. And I mean it. I am sorry. I love you. But i cant. Im sorry.

I love you.

30/12/2011

2011-12-30T05:46:00.000-08:00

I slept kinda late last night. and so I woke up EARLY. lolwhut Yes I woke up around 9 cos nak hantar mak pi hospital. okay. Takpe , lately ni program dia menjadi2 -.-' takpe , ikutkan sahaja. Bila lagi nak berjasa dengan parents kita kan ? *anak mithali* and so sampai around 9.30 and PENUH GILA. drop mak and cari parking but takde so just park tepi , turunkan sit like a boss and tidur :D fr almost 2 hours ! omg heaven ! HAHAHA

Then around 11.30 mak dah sudah picked her up and went to Alamanda. Just window shopping. Then we had kenny rogers mengidam macaroni and cheseeseeesese uuu sedapnya :O HAHA Then i bought few tshirts and mom bought her stuff then we went back home :)

Otp with safina and tidur again from 2.30 til 8 -.-' omg i love sleeping I can sleep for days. HAHAHA Going to Mid tomorrow morning with asyraf and sya. temankan asyraf cari bag and varsity. Planning on staying home time new years eve cof trauma dengan perkara yang berlaku time last new year -.-' taknak dua dua belah mata pulak yang kene curah air garam -.-' HAHA

Have a nice day peeps :D

Kebosanan melanda

2011-12-30T05:42:00.000-08:00

........ I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE ANYMORE T_T My sleeping schedule is fucked up and I am all healthy lolwhut. Didnt to anything much this hols. School will reopen next week which means 2011 is almost over. I miss school :/ wait , I dont really miss miss school. I MISS THE MOMENTS IN SCHOOL WITH MY FRIENDS ): MY GIRLS ): Okay please dont be emo :D

So lately I've been going out here and there and I've been preparing my stuff for NY. Approximately a month from now I am going to NY :) and I want everything to be fine. Long is coming back this 14th January. Got Aqiqah for Baby Maria and all blablabla. I know its going to be one busy month :O Not to mention my birthday is coming wohoo the highlight of January ! :D haha

I dont know what to type anymore. I dont want to live in this planet anymore. -.-'

driver -.-

2011-12-29T06:56:00.000-08:00

So bila dah bolrh drive ni , mak pun dengan comel suruh hantar sana sini. ttbe program dia bertambah2 -.-' so anyway today woke up at 9 sebab nak hantar mak pi aster spring lolwhut. okay .. So siap2 semua pukul 11 baru keluar then mak sya dah call lolwhut HAHAHA Then sampai hantar mak dulu and all then stayed for a while and around 12 pergi warta and beli groceries. uuuu shop like a boss :D HAHAH Then drive balik hantar mak pi aster spring cos dia nak buat treatment and I went back home hantar barang barang ;D Then went back to aster spring and had lunch with sya :) nasi goreng wadinahahahaha sedap !

So anyway , before I met sya , I was walking and macam longkang kecik2 tu and ada jaring. then I was like okay. and the next thing I know dah jatuh. LIKE -.-t okay my kaki sakit like omg wtf seriously. curse you longkang ! after lunch I went to Alamanda lolwhut had starbucks and sampai balik dekat aster spring right on time. then went to petril station and went to mazris for a while and went back home and sleep til 9 lolwhut. AHA

Esok kena hantar mak pergi hospital pulak. uu nice -.-

Longkang sakai -.-t

always have always will

2011-12-29T06:32:00.000-08:00

I love you. so please stay. I know you are different. I know you are cos you are my bestfriend. I love you :)

Twins :)

2011-12-29T06:08:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday guys :D May Allah bless :)

NEWYORK :D

2011-12-28T11:48:00.000-08:00

First of all , Thank you Allah. for everything :)

I woke up early today and went to Pavi with dad for the ticket. and everything went well. Alhamdulillah :) now I can just relax and be happy :) YAY :D

Sunway with bestfriends :)

2011-12-28T08:15:00.000-08:00

So on tuesday , I went out with the twins and asyraf :) woke up around 9 then picked up twins and asyraf then went to sunway. picked up adik only. Jia tak sihat lolwhut. sampai sunway we had nandos as our breakfast and lunch then we went to ice skating. tengok sunway lagoon like omg ramai gila org -.- so tak jadi. and so after that Jia texted me ckp she's on her way. lolwhut ttbe dah tak demam. HAHAHA and so adik , asyraf and I main ice skating dulu :)

Few mins after that Jia datang and we played til 2. It was fun :D really ! ;D after that we went to ... wait jap i forgot -.- I think we went to Delicious and had desserts there. I order scones , the twins order coconut cake and asyraf order brownies. We had fun like seriously we laughed so hard :) awesome :D After that we went to tutti fruitti lol lapar lagi. Then to starbucks.

After that around 3 we went home. I swear serious panas and mengantuk -.-' sampai rumah terus tidur around 8 bangun cos the twins nak datang. Had prosperity as dinner and played MW3 with the twins :D NICE :D

HAD A WONDERFUL DAY :) Btw , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINS ! :D

2011-12-25T12:21:00.000-08:00

Everybody's going to hurt you. You just have to find someone that is worth the pain. So okay what if everyone is worth the pain ? Would that be ... bullshit? Maybe. It is 4.30 AM and I cant get back to sleep and I have no idea why. My sleeping schedule is fucked up. I've been feeling as fucked up as asdfghjkl since SPM is over. Useless and everything and trust me , no idea why. I just felt so. -.-t

Youknow , I never really like to take part in anyone's life. but when I do , I will always take part and will always care. Thats the thing , I care too much , I love tooo much , and I end up getting hurt too much. One of the greatest reason why you're so fucked up is because ... you THINK you are everyone's fucking second choice. well , maybe to some people. and youknow what , Its really is a sad thing when peopple you are closed to are like that. Take you for granted , hurt you in anyway and act like ' OH I AM FUCKING INNOCENT!' you know what you can go and fuck yourself. Idk how that will do , but just fucking go. Like seriously. If you think you can put me as your fucking second choice , well guess what I can just remove you from my life. YOU ARE NOT WORTH EVEN A SEC OF MY FUCKING TIME YOU LIFELESS BASTARD. All you cared about is your fucking stupid boyfriend that is fucking bullshit and fucking arrogant. and you are nothing but just like him. I put you first in everything I do , you end up hurting me like fuck. And when I read our old convos , I said to myself 'what went wrong?' Im sorry if what I said hurt you before or whatso but you dont have to be a fucking bitch. God wth. If You wanna leave , which I recommend for you to do , just go. It's been 1 year ! 1 fucking year. and yes , the memories are still fresh in my mind. How can I just let everything go when you're ONCE the best part of me ? If you think I am your fucking second choice , come to me when you need me only , just burn yourself :) I'll be here , always. I'm here waiting for your greatest downfall. Oh yes , that is fucking true. Do I look like I care now ? NO.

I just dont get why some people like this. fucking stupid lifeless bastard. god who knows that one person that's your bestfriend turn out to be the douche bag after a while. God I dont ever wanna be like that. but who cares ? I dont even give a fuck about it. I can be whatever I wanna be. I've reached that one point where I dont give a shit about it anymore. Cos its like a point of no return. ITS USELESS. Fucking useless. Just because you know I will forgive even in a blink of an eye , you can hurt me. Just because you know I will wait , you make me wait. Just because you know I am nice , you can take me for granted. and you think its a good thing to do ? NO. Its not a good thing ): Why cant people see it. gosh. Its torturing me man. to wait , to always forgive , even sometime I dont even wanna do it ! But for the sake of friendship and Allah , I had to. and sometimes , Its just not worth it. for some people like you , Its not. I am here , dying to make you happy , dying to fix things , dying to atleast see your smile and I end up getting hurt. HA-HA-HA WHATTHEFUCK. Be matured ! You are not 7 man ! Stop doing stupid things and start thinking ! Kept on telling myself that I'd never let anyone hurt me and tada , the most unexpected person on earth. Congrats , you just won a gold medal.

I know that .. this is just life. But sometimes enough is enough. I've had enough will all the bullshits. who can control feelings right ? god I do believe that there are someone out there that is worth all the pain and all. and Im glad that I met that particular person already. actually not one. but more than 2 less than 6. you do the maths. 5 to be exact. And I believe these people are worth fighting for. well , I hope so. I've put 100% my soul and my heart for them. and I am me when I'm with them. and forsure , they hurt me in their own ways but Its worth the pain. However , please dont use that oppurtunity to hurt me. or whatso cos I swear hurting you guys or even just any strangers would be the last thing ever.

I've finally realized that those who walked away can just gth. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe I cant see the reason now , But I am sure one day I will. Thank you for making me who I am today. Last but not least , Thank you for hurting me. You made me stronger than I am before. Therefore , I won. so now , just gth and may Allah bless you :) I'm done dealing with you. You are forever out from my life. FOREVER. But if you ever planning of coming back , dont bother. really dont. You left me just like that , what a good friend you are. so dont come back saying you are sorry or whatso. I forgive. But to accept you back , thats is something That I cant. You hurt me too much. Therefore , please just leave and dont ever come back. Thankyou.

seramai

2011-12-25T11:56:00.000-08:00

School's over. and now we're all busy. Truth to be told , You guys are amazing :) we had our ups and downs but yeah , that's life.

For me , 'seramai' is just the title. truth to be told , we are on our own now. I wish nothing but the best for you guys. I will always be there if you need me, always :) As long as I have Iylia , sya , nan , dede and fiqah , I'll be fine :) And as for the rest , I love you guys no matter what I swear always have always will. Just Maybe MAYBE things are different now after what had happened. Everything changed but yet , we're still here for each other. Though not as a group , but as friends. And that is something good.

Thank you for everything , the memories and all. I'm forever grateful for everything. Thanks again guys and may this friendship lasts :) I love you guys :)

heeee :)

2011-12-25T08:04:00.000-08:00

and after 10 days , she's back :D YAY I MISS YOU IYLIA :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

sleep online eat tv

2011-12-25T07:52:00.002-08:00

Yes , thats's what I've been doing since SPM is over. and hangout. That's all -.-' Didnt know life after SPM is going to be this ... PATHETIC -.- Bukan bosan lagi pathetic terus. Is it just me or what ? huhhhh.

So anyway , I went out with asyraf tun yesterday. We had nando's for lunch and we watched sherlock holmes :D NICE MOVIE :D EPIC ! and after that we had baskin robbins together :) and still hungry and so we had McD PROSPERITYYY HUHUHU :D And yes , Iordered McChicken 2 pieces untuk makan dekat rumah. HAHAHA Sampai rumah around 7.30 and tidur til 8.30 and safina kejut bangun. I swear SO SLEEPY but kena bangun jugak sebab lapar. HAHAHA and so I had the mcChicken and then yong taufu and then maggi cup lolwtf is wrong with me makan banyak gila but tak gemok gemok. metabolism tinggi ! :D hahaha

Slept around 5 yesterday and woke up at 5pm today -.-' yes , Im a baby. tidur kene genap 12 jam. HAHAHA Mom and dad takde dekat rumah and so yeah. Went to tutti fruitti with sya then kedai mamak and had my dinner. and now Im just blogging and do random stuff. omg im so bored I can die. okaybye.

AF

2011-12-25T07:52:00.001-08:00

I love you and I've been missing you so much. and this is killing me :/ DISTANCE SUCKS :/

So he is back

2011-12-22T06:36:00.000-08:00

He is back to Kuching. I miss him already. Fuck distance ): I'm so happy when he's here. I do. Thank you :) I love you :D

Day out with Nuranians :)

2011-12-22T05:39:00.000-08:00

Long story shorted malas nak menulis. HAHA went out with le girls today. went to alamanda. It was a good day. Thanks guys ! :)

Festival Mutiara Seni

2011-12-22T05:31:00.000-08:00

So I went to Festival Mutiara Seni yesterday and met anaz and his family :) So mom and dad sent me to kakyan's house and after maghbrib kakyan sent me to Uitm Shah Alam. sampai around 8 and met zil first :) Then while nak duduk saw anis :D I was nervous while waiting for anaz to come but as soon as I saw him coming in , I felt ... happy :) hee ayumi so cute :D salam parents dia and all and sat and all. and... The show pun start :) heeeeeeeeeeee :D

IT WAS AWESOME :D Really , future-future artist :D heee I was so cold. and so Anaz took my hand and put inside her jacket's pocket :) Aww I love you :) Then dah habis jumpa anis and azeilah and zil and took lots of pictures :) It was awesome :D After berapa lama tak jumpa , finally jumpa jugak :D heee around 11.30 dad picked me up and we went home :)

Slept at 1. so sleepy and tired. But then again , It was a good day :) Thank you anaz and everyone ! :)

NY

2011-12-19T06:40:00.000-08:00

Maybank memang cilaka. serious, Now either nak pi local office terus beli or tunggu 18 baru beli. If nak tungu kene sabar lah. hope ticket tak habis. God. memang fuck lah maybank. ergh if the tic habis I really dont know what to do -.- omg please lah jangan.

If la aku taknak sangat pun pergi NY , takkan kisah pun. But thats the thing , I wanted to go so badly. so yeah.

hectic day

2011-12-19T05:03:00.000-08:00

So I slept at kakyan's house last thursday til saturday. cos nak tolong with the sale. and I swear her house like dekat hujung dunia. even hujung dunia pun sekarang dah ada line weyh ! rumah dia ? pergh tarapapapa !!! -.-' serious kalau nak bertexting kene duduk bawha, tu pun kalau BERNASIB BAIK dapat. kalau tak , forever alone lah kau dekat sana -.-'

So before pergi rumah dia , we went to Empire. she got appointment.. But then cancelled. dia belum apa2 lagi dah shopping -.-' and we had our lunch at Teh Tarik. I had nasi lemak. SEDAP :D And roti pisang :D okay I am so hungry -.- Then we went to her house and mandi2 semua and went out again sebab nak tengok MI3 :D IT WAS AWESOME :DDDDDDD we had our dinner outside. around 12 baru sampai rumah balik. lol so tired. The next day settle kan stuff for the sale and didnt go out lol. Then on saturday is the day , I swear hari tu memang panas -.-' saw kakyan's friends and just hang and jaga the booth. It went well :D heee very nice and I WAS SUPER TIRED -.-' Then straight balik bangi. and nak dekat sampai rumah baru tahu nak keluar AGAIN and celebrate birthday mak.okay ........

Rush mandi semua and 8.30 keluar pi dinner. god super tired and takde mood. memang tak cakap langsung. Then baru ingat tak pakai jam. lagilah macam asdfgkijdlwjdoehd -.-' however , the food was nice :D Balik rumah lepak dekat pavi rumah and had cakes :) 2 slices mehehehe :3 Then just skype dengan safina and all.

It was a good day. but penat like asdfghjkl -.-' Anyhoo , I kinda enjoyed myself. again , Happy birthday mak ! :)

Happy birthday Mom !

2011-12-19T01:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK :D May Allah bless you and our family :) You've been a great wife to dad and a good mother to your kids. I love you mak :) Semoga dipanjangkan Umur dan dimurahkan rezeki :) You deserve nothing but the best cos mom , YOU ARE THE BEST :DDD

I love you :)

before and after

2011-12-19T01:31:00.000-08:00

My last update ... 1 week ago. lol wtf is happening to me -.- I used to blog every day BEFORE spm. Walapun homework macam bertimbun , tapi wa setia dengan lappy berblogging bertumblr semua lah. Now dah habis spm , sumpah rasa malas tahap maximum. Asyik tidur sampai petang. malam baru on. tidur balik pukul 4. and everyday macam tu... WHAT IS HAPPENING ?!!?!

so .. Life BEFORE SPM :

Balik sekolah online form 1 hour then tidur sampai pukul 7. bangun online sampai pukul 11 or 12 and tidur balik. Kalau nak babi lagi , tidur pukul 2 bangun pukul 7 and then pukul 9 tidur balik. Pergi sekolah sekadar nak jumpa kawan-kawan. huahuhauhauhuaa balik and the same routine everyday. kadang2 je study and sabtu ahad jangan ceritalah. buku tu macam tak pernah wujud dalam dunia ni. HAHAHA Then midnight calls dengan Iylia and sya and nano and texting all day long. hangout , parties sana sini. lolwhut. balik lewat. hangout malam2 tak kisah hari sekolah ke hape. tgk tv sampai pagi. main games. YES. Indeed.

Nak cakap study tu memang 10% je kot. ke tak sampai. HAHA

Life AFTER SPM :

TAKDE LIFE -.-'

bye :D

Prayer

2011-12-14T11:43:00.000-08:00

Indeed. Please take good care of them for me. Now that school is over , its hard to see each other. Please take good care of them. I love them very much, whoever they're , strangers and everything. Thank you Allah.

I love you best friends

2011-12-14T11:02:00.000-08:00

Qila , Iylia , Sya and nano :D

Sleepover :D

I dont know where to begin. It's like yesterday we're all in school , not knowing each other and now , look at us ! Bestfriends ! I love you guys. They're part of seramai , but the way I see it now , nothing lasts forever. Seramai consist of 10 people. and so it is hard to cope out with all. I dont know whether seramai is .. available or what so But what I do know is that , these beautiful ladies are always and forever available in my life :) How can I push them away when the best part of me was always them ? How can I forget them when They're all I ever wanted in my life ? They taught me the true meaning of friendship and the other way around. Most of all , they're MY true friends.

Iylia is the ones that always be there for me. In school and everywhere. She might be MIA sometimes but I know she's always there for me. She's my soulmate. How can I be far away from her ? That is impossible ! Sya is the ones that also , always there for me. If you look at us , you'll see the real friendship. she's annoying though. like Iylia :) Nano is the ones that always there , to make people laugh and always listen to people. These 3 people are the most important people in my life. How can I live without them ? No idea. They're the reason why school is turning from hell to heaven , the reason why every mornings seems to be a great morning and the reason why I wake up every each day. without them , I dont think I can deal with life better.

I went to sya's house today. and we had a convo about me going to newyork. what if that 1 month changes everything ? No , It wont. InsyaAllah. If the love is based on Allah , InsyaAllah it wont :) There are certain friendship that .. ruined. before. between me and my friends. That is because only 1 side made an effort. and really , I dont give a damn about that. But thats the thing , when it comes to these 3 , everything is important. Sya's afraid of losing me and all. same goes to me. Iylia's afraid of losing her one and only soulmate. same goes to me. Nano's afraid of losing me. same goes to me. In other way , we're afraid of losing each other but guess what , InsyaAllah we wont cos Allah will always be there to guide us. Sya is afraid that my friendship with her would be just 'another friendship' like my friends and I before. I hope its not. Thats the thing about her , she doesnt wanna believe that friendship lasts forever because of what happened to seramai and all. She's afraid. But then again , I am not like others. I am different. I will never leave my friends. never. I will always be there for them.

The only thing that she believe that lasts is , soulmate. Me and Iylia. Yes , indeed. Soulmate lasts forever. Why ? I cant even figure that out. Maybe its the bond thingy thing or whatso. Whatever it is , Iylia and I are one of a heck soulmate. I love her very much. We fight and all but oh wells , soulmate will always find their way back to each other :) InsyaAllah :) She believes that only soulmate lasts forever. I told her she's wrong. My best friends , Izzy and muaz , me and anaz , me and hakeem razi , we're bestfriends since kids ! Izzy and Muaz from standard 2. Anaz from standard 3. Hakeem from standard 5. and until now , we're still bestfriends and always be there for each other. eventhough we are far or whatso , we tend to contact each other. Friendship lasts when there efforts between everyone and not just ... words. Not just impure words. Friendship lasts when there are efforts. And I believe that sya believes that there are things that lasts.

Not just sya , but to Iylia and nano as well. Iylia is different. She is my soulmate. we're different. Four of us are very close. very. It's like ionic bond. Okay .. dont wanna involve chemistry -.-' My point is , I love them. I love all of my friends. New and old friends , everyone. They're in my life for reason. And I believe to make me a better person and all. To teach me lessons and be there til' the end of time. I believe in that. Friendship do lasts forever. when there are efforts and everything. I love you guys :D

Love ?

2011-12-14T10:40:00.000-08:00

What is Love ? LOVE ? Well , no specific definition for love. Really. Different people , different explanations. As for me , Love is when you look at that someone and you know why you did not work out with the ones before the guy , when you know the only thing that exist in your life is him , When you know that only the thought of him make you smile and nothing can overcome that. When you just simply want to hear their voice in the middle of the night and just simply stare at them. Love is when you sacrifice things for them in order to make yourself happy , Is when you accept he/she for who they are, love them for whatever they are and be there for them. Not just in times of need , but always. Love is when you surrender everything for them (the good ones) and when you look at them , You know that life is complete. You are willing to spend your time with them. Always and forever. That is Love to me.

However , that kind of person is hard to find now. But be thankful. The wrong ones will somehow help you to find the right one for you. So be patient and be thankful. To girls , Love is everything. and yet , to some , Love tear them all apart. To me , It's a NO. Love is not like that. You know why ? Human is. Love is subjective. You cannot blame love for the heartbreaking and everything. You and your partner should work things out in order to be together forever. Relationship works in both ways. You cannot deal with it on your own. How can you make it work when you are the only one that is making an effort to make it work ? No cant do. I've been living for 17 years and to me , based on stories that I've heard from my friends , love is romantic. But you see , people tend to make it such a big deal like love is fragile love is cruel and all. ITS NOT. If love is cruel , You'd be suffering since the beggining but instead , you're somewhere in the moon while in love. If love is fragile , You'd feel it for the very first time cos It's broken. If love is mean , You wouldnt try to make things in the first place. If and only if Love is a bad thing , we better just die. Allah is fair. He created 'love' for the sake of our happiness. Love is bittersweet. Bad memories , good memories , either way , they are precious.

Love exist since we're born. even before we're born between our parents. From there , you know that Love is true. Love is loyal. What hurts the most is that you arent sure about your partner , how loyal , how true they are. But believe me , If its meant to be , It will always come back to you. If it's not , It never was. Love is to believe. Believe in miracles of Allah. You have to believe in order to achieve something. You cant simply say that love is stupid and all. Human is. Not love. If you are suffering because of love , that is KINDA true. If you suffer because of someone , that is true-er. Love never let people suffer. Its human. You let that someone to take control of your own feelings. You let them control you. Is that even possible ? Yes , ofcourse. You might say that oh no , I am not like that and all but when you're in love , you'll know how it feels like.

My point is , Love is a good thing. Love never dissapoint people. But our partner. It is always us. Maybe if we stop blaming love , we'd finally understand the real meaning of 'love' and start loving the right way :)

and ...

2011-12-14T10:09:00.000-08:00

And I just finished otp with maybank dude. Yes , its 2 am and yes , hotline tu 24 hours service dia. Jangan ingat aku gila pulak call maybank malam2 ni okay. Aku call sebab terpaksa. sebab debit card kejadah tu semua. Haih Ya Allah , banyak betul dugaan nak pi new york ni ): Please make things easier for me, O Allah ): So hows my day ? Well , I woke up at 3 :D yes , shuttap. I was so tired due to the day before , SHOPPING ;D mehehe. And so When I woke up I sent my mom to her kelas mengaji and had maggi for lunch while watching Harry Potter and cried. lolwhut. Then dad came home and we tried to book the ticket. AND CANNOT. t(-.-t) Thats alright I tried again. Until now , Takboleh. Wa taktahu kenapa but wtv it is esok nak pi maybank again. Aku senanya dah boleh kerja dekat situ dah. kerja sebelah pak guard tu -.-'

So and then I went out around 6 to ATM depan and bank in duit and went to sya's house. Just chilling. tried to book but hmmph dah boleh bakar dah laman web emirates tu sebenarnye :) HAHHA -.-' Then solat semua and went to mamak and had our dinner. I had roti canai and capati ... wow.. so many. HAHA Then we just jalan2 and all and around 9 I went back home :D Kene lecture dengan ayah and mak about something and I was like wtf o.0 -.- Nevermind. dah lama tak kene bebel macam tu. It was worth it lol :D Then had Lamb for dinner. yes , 2 lambs wohoo :D nice :D I LOIKE :D

Then again , I tried to book but CANNOT. I REPEAT CANNOT. huargh. I shall wait til tomorrow and try again. If still cannot , I will just die or something. and pray ofcourse. Going to Kakyan's house tomorrow. Have a nice day people ! :D

Shopping :D

2011-12-13T06:36:00.000-08:00

After a while dah lama tak shopping , finally today I went to Midvalley ;D mom got facial. dad pergi main golf and so I toured Midvalley :D I swear every floor semua pergi HAHAH Then cari baju and all :D After almost 3 hours of walking , everything's done. So I just relax at starbucks and wait for my mom to finish her facial. It was raining heavily HAHA. Then after few mins mom came and I teman'd her makan first and then , START SIGNING :D HAHA omg im so jahat. wells dah lama tak shopping HAHAHA :D

I swear my legs god SAKIT GILA !!!! After dah habis shopping semua , pergi solat then pergi jusco pulak. Then makan mcd pulak. I swear I was so tired takde selera nak makan. HAHA I just .. duduk and .. did nothing. HAHAH

My badan like nak patah 92093289 kerat and I wanna go home. AFter that , I bought 1901 and then we went back home. Finally. and its 9 already. I've been walking since 2 man ! 2 2 2 !! Imagine the pain. HAHAHA Then in the car I slept like a boss. I ignored every texts and I just slept. nice. then bangun badan sakit what the ... HAHAHA And then just simpan all the stuffs and mandi semua :) And now I am blogging :D

What a nice day. I am tired. But today was awesome :D Thank you mom and dad ! I love you :D And most of all , Thank You Allah :)

Alkisah Maybank

2011-12-13T06:26:00.000-08:00

So today I woke up at 8. GOD WHAT. Dad -.-' and so I had breakfast. pancakes. god kene paksa. and got papple as well. But no thanks. Im already full. The starter of the day dah dengar mak menjerit dekat bawah. oh wellss , bibik -.- and so around 8.30 I took bath and then around 9.15 we left the house. Mom and dad sent me to Maybank cos I wanna do the Debit Card. Then they went to Hospital Putrajaya. Mom left her car for me. NICE :D mehehe :3 and so while waiting for 79827912 years , It's my turn. well so what is it about ?

First , Maybank is so stupid. The system , the worker and everything t(-.-t) Secondly , there's this one guard yang memang nak mintak kaki lah kan muka dia. Auntie nak pick up her phone and then suddenly this guard datang dengan suara kerek KONON nak bisik tapi satu malaysia dengar ' TAKBOLEH CAKAP DALAM BANK.' and then I was like lol whut ? Apa nak terbakar ke bank ni kalau bercakap ? cakap dengan orang sebelah boleh pulak .. Okay. takpayah nak kerek sangat bro. lu guard sahaja. Then datang second guard. ni dengan spec hitam bega dengan senapang. hek eleh. wa tahu lu ada senapang tapi jangan buat gaya James Bond sangat bro Tak kene. Dah tu dok ulang alik depan counter. dah kenapa meroyan ke hape -.-'

Then after a while , datanglah pulah a bunch of indons. The guy which I think the bf of one of the girls like BISING gila. I was like wtf shut the hell up la bro. ergh. Then kawan that guy datang and the guy yang bising to introduce kawan dia dekat GF dia and suddenly dia cakap ' best en badan dia?' LOL WHAT THE FUCK SIAL ! I was like whut ? Thats your gf man ! or pelacur ke apa ke Idk. but c'mon this is bank ? Apa tempat ni nampak macam tempat pelacuran ke apa ? -.-' serious bodoh tahap kuasa kuda. dah tak sudah tu dok kehulu-kihilir dengan kunci dia yang tak boleh nak byk lagi. konon stock kau ada 7928792 ferrari lah pulakkan =.= After that , ada budak2 nangis sebab berebut main ipad. lol whut aku kecik2 dulu main masak2 je weyh dekat rumah. Tak berebut Ipad in the middle of the bank. Gila ke hape. apesal pak guard tu taknak bising org lain bising ? eh muka mintak kaki iylia je. Lepas tu ada minah indon ni angkat call , kena lagi. aku rasa guard ni jealous kot tengok orang otp sebab dia takdpt otp dengan gf dia ke apa ke last night. watlek bro. pagi masih muda.

Then , its my turn. SYSTEM DOWN. ah mampos. Down tak Down wa nak card wa siap that day. and so kene tunggu for 30 minutes and alhamdulillah everything semua okay :D Then masuk duit semua and then I have to kelurkan rm50 cos I forgot that I left my wallet in dad's car. lol wth -.-' Then went to kedai topup. boleh pulak pergi tulis salah number. kepala kau qila. number sendiri kau tak ingat -.- kau dah kenapa -.-' HAHAHAHAHA ! then terpaksa topup again -.-' after that went to Bank Islam for cheque kebenda ntah and went to kedai makan and tapau makanan and went back home and watched Harry Potter :D

Then I took a nap. The end :D Pretty much my morning. Maybank Maybank , kau memang. ish drama queen sungguh. HAHA

3 months :)

2011-12-13T06:22:00.000-08:00

Happy 3 months baby :D 3 months and still counting. The date is nice also. 13/12/11 :) May Allah bless both of us :)

I love you :D

sister

2011-12-13T01:10:00.000-08:00

I miss her so much. HAHA lolwhut this is so not me. Maybe because Im growing up and I know that she is definitely growing old. She's my childhood. She's my everything. She's the only sister I have in my life. and without her , I dont think I'd be able to live happily. Without her , I dont think life would be this amazing. Without her , I dont think I can write all ths stuff. Without her , my life would be pathetic. She's my energy.n she's my one and only amazing yet annoying sister ever.

She knows all my friends. She's there for me. sometimes she is strict and sometimes not. I dont know I feel like doing this post for her as she is one of the most special people in my life. I know she'll read my blog. stalker much -.-' but I love her with all my heart. I'd give the world just for her. Same goes to her. She sacrificed so much. SO MUCH FOR ME. so much. No words can ever describe that. Time , money , energy and everything. She's my partner in everything. When I look at her , I know that in the future , I can always count on her. The way I look at Iylia , at sya , that is how I look at my sister.

She's one in a million. She's my one in a million. We are like superglue. When she's around , I'd definitely push her away cos she's annoying as hell. but when she's not here , I'd definitely crawl to my house phone and call her. I remember there's this one time whereby I was so pissed off and she called me. and I cried. and she's there. to just listen. to understand how much it hurts when people compared you with someone. I cannot live without her. If there's ever a day that God take her away first , I dont know what to do. I really dont. cos the thought of losing her is killing me. The thought of not having her in my life is killing me every second. I cannot live without her. She's my strength. My power. With her , I can do anything. With her , I can do everything. With her , I am perfect. With her, my life is complete.

I love you kak yan. I really do. With every bits of my everything , I love you :)

2:32 AM

2011-12-11T10:32:00.000-08:00

Yes , I am still awake. Emotional breakdown just now. Omg seriously its been a while. really. Its about NY. The thought of not going is killing me. I really wanna go. and So I dont care how the fuck it works , I still wanna go. and so Anaz called and we talked. first time ever , I cried like that. like omg so pathetic -.-' but I felt fine with he's there. Thank you. Thank you. I love you :D thanks to safina and sya also for kept on saying the awesome words to make me feel better. really thanks :D

Im feeling a bit better now after tweeting with anaz. He is really a good guy. I love you :D So yeah , tomorrow Iylia is coming over. Better sleep now. Goodnight world !

A day to remember :)

2011-12-11T10:11:00.000-08:00

So its the day that I've been waiting for. I woke up at 7.30. lol nervous cos dah lama tak jumpa.:O HAHA Then I texted sya , nan , iylia and safina. I dont want to text him lol whut. HAHA Then I just you know guling guling atas katil and then mandi. lol whut awal gila mandi. HAHAHAHHAHA ! Then watched despicable me :D PAPPLE :D HAHAH WHUT I LAUGHED SO HARD ! HAHAHA :D Then around 9 baru nak siap like betul2 siap and then tunggu uncle datang. tepat at 11 dia datang and then we picked up sya and went straight to KLCC :) Sampai2 pergo toilet dulu lol then went to starbucks. baru duduk for 10 minutes , sya cakap ' qila anaz.' and I was like ' no tipu.' sya ' no serious anaz!' and so I got up and turned and tadaaaaaaaaaaaa I saw him :D heeee and I saw ayumi and Ayumi salam semua and Anaz hugged me :) awww what a great day to start HAHA :D Then we just hang at starbucks for more than 30minutes coz nak tunggu nan and anaz and I played that tangan pe benda jadah tu HAHA. and I lost -.-' k ..

After that , we went to Kinokuniya and nano sampai :D awww nano so pretty :D hee then jalan asing asing. nano and sya. me anaz and Ayumi together. we went fr lunch. Lunch at nandos cos tempat lain dah full and ayumi dah lapar. nandos also dah full but beratur lah sekejap. HAHA Then we had our lunch and then tour KLCC. lol kaki memang dah boleh tercabut -.-' HAHAHA Then we met anaz's auntie and hang sekejap. and then auntie dia amik ayumi and so tinggal two of us. we went to NZ ice cream and met nano and sya there. Anaz bought ice cream. we shared :D heee Then we just hang luar KLCC and walked anaz to his hotel. Took lots of pictures and all :) Anaz and sya takboleh stop gaduh lagi, dah boleh laga kepala dah dua dua sebenarnye -.-' but baguslah boleh get along mehehe :)

After that , sampai dekat dengan hotel ke KLIDCXSJXWQ kejadah tu , we said goodbye and again , he hugged me :) I swear it's the best feeling ever :) HAHA. Then again , sya and anaz dah boleh hantuk kepala tu sama2 sendiri -.- HAHAHA Then dah hantar tu , nano sya and I went to starbucks again and we had our coffee while waiting for uncle :) Then just borak2 then uncle sampai :D Then nano tunggu kakak dia and all and god I swear kaki sakit gila -.-'

It was the best :) I was tired and all but It was worth it :) really It was ! :D I'm so happy nothing can stop me from smiling :D meheheeh :3 and yes , semalam got eclipse ! dapat tgk sikit je ): too bad. But thats alright :) mehehe :D

Thank you Allah for a wonderful day yesterday. I am VERY VERY Thankful :DD

soulmate

2011-12-11T07:12:00.000-08:00

Iylia Syahirah Bt Faisal. Yep , that's her. My one and only soulmate. How pathetic a life without her existance. I love you bitch. I really do. Thank you for everything. These 2 years , 2010 and 2011 , they're AMAZING because you are part of my memories , my chapters. My bad that I didnt even bother to say Hi to you when we're still in lower form and all , But I guess now I see the reason why Allah never let me to do that. or any of us to do that to each other. It's amazing how we turn out to be soulmate. I dont even know how we cme up with that title ! Too many common things ? thoughts ? anything or more to everything ? I think so :) We are everything to each other. Soulmate , best friend , lesbian lover , enemy , crime partner , lovers , siblings and everything. and It's funny how we can get along pretty well. You know me very well , and I know you very well. Your likes , your dislikes , your moods , your hobby, your ambition , you laziness and your everything. You know what I dislike the most , you understand my mood , you know how late I can get up from bed , you knw how important are friends in my life , you know how evil I am and you know everything about me. I dont know why it's like that but I think thats the soulmate thingy thing.

These 2 years , no need to mention more , It's the best. Though now It's just a memory , the past , but its the best. You know , Eeveryday I go to school hoping that everything would be perfect. and guess what ? PERFECT. Because you're there. The first person I ever want to see every gloomy mornings and your warm big hug and kiss made all the pains and all the badmoods just gone to the wheretheheckistan. Just by seeing you every morning , I swear that made my 2011 Iylia. Omg so lesbian HAHA but that's the truth. How can I not be happy when one of the reason why I am happy is you ? How can I not stay mad when all you ever did back then was making stupid jokes and all ? How can I not go to school if You're always there hoping that I cme to school too ? How can I not feel guilty when everytime I skip school and you would definitely text me saying ' I datang sebab you tau ):' ? How can my days not perfect when there's you ?

You are worth every fights that we had , every arguements and every moments that we spent together. from The moment we ever talk and til' now. You're worth every bits of it. I dont care how arrogant , how hard , how hard-hearted you are , or whatever , I will always find a reason to fight for you. I dont care how hard you are , how you always sulk and all , I will always be there , persuading you to be okay. I will always be there for you. I will always talk to you. I will always make you happy. I will always mengalah when it comes to you. I will always always always find that one reason to stick around though I have thousand reasons to leave you. I would never want to leave you. Allah sent you for a reason , I wouldnt even wanna leave you without reasons and come back with excuses. never. I will fight for that 1 reason to stay. I will always be there for you , through thick and thin , morning , night wherever whatever whenever. I promise. I love you Iylia. You are my everything. If I'd ever ever lose you , I'd be the most unfortunate person in this world. You are like a sister to me , always there to bring me up when life hit me hard. You're always there. Always.

Thank you for everything. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for making me cry cos of happiness. Thank you for making my year awesome. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for always picking up the phone. Thank you for all the fights. Thank you for all the arguments. Thank you for all the texts. Thank you for always hug me everyday in school. Thank you for always giving me advises and all. Thank you for always always help me in this life. Thank you for always bring me up when I am down. Thank you for giving me a chance to be in your life. Thank you for giving me a space to be one and only your soulmate. Thank you for loving me for who I am despite all my flaws and mistakes. Just simply thank you for everything. Really. If this is not love , I dont know what is then :)

Despite your flaws and stupid actions , I will always love you Iylia. How can I not ? HAHA. Thank you for everything and I love you :)

hmmphh

2011-12-11T06:52:00.000-08:00

One of those nights again , emotional breakdown. No its not Emotional breakdown. Its just .. one of those nights that you feel like .. crying just so you can see life much more clearer than before. I'll be fine. I know I will. I have always will.

t(-.-t)

2011-12-11T04:40:00.000-08:00

I dont know why but since habis SPM ni , kemalasan untuk update blog , bertumblr , berfb semua berkurang. macam asdfghjkl -.- Dulu , time nak spm haaa amik kau kalau dapat every saat nak buat post apa semua. Lepas SPM ? tak buat post berapa hari pun takde feeling. Dia mcm ish memang ish. MEMANG MACAM NI KA ? adoiyai.

I didnt know that life after SPM is going to be THIS boring. like seriously. Eat , sleep , online , tv , hangout and again and again. omg what a life -.-' Nevermind , atleast got some free time. Thats alright I will just make use of it 100% :D so amma spam the dashboard with my posts. dah lama tak berblogging. so Its time ! HAHA :) Bye :D

moments with seramai :)

2011-12-08T04:47:00.000-08:00

Sleepover :D

Seminar Masterskills :)

Lawatan ke Mosti :D

Last day of school :)

Jamuan PPIM :)

Iylia's suprise party :)

Athirah's open house :)

open houses :)

Gambar class :)

Lawatan ke PWTC :)

SPELL IT RIGHT :)

DEBATE :)

Senior year :)

Maulidur Rasul :)

Fiqah's suprise party :)

Class party 2010 :)

My birthday party :)

Berbuka with seramai :)

Graduation day :)

You know , the memories are all precious. and I'd trade the world to repeat them all again. I love you guys very much. I really do. Thank you for everything guys. May this friendship lasts forever :) Amin :D

GUESS WHAT?

2011-12-08T04:28:00.000-08:00

SPM IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR WOHOOOO :DDD

A piece of something

2011-12-06T12:53:00.000-08:00

I printscreen what she wrote on 27/11/2011. and today is 7/12/2011/ 20 days already since the day I printscreen that thing. You see , what she wrote somehow , caught my attention. no , she's nobody. back then. I followed her because her tweet sangat meaningful. I didnt knw where she is from , or who is she or what so. But when we start tweeting and all , I can sense that she's going to be someone important in my life. Like Iylia and sya. What she tweeted on that day , up here kinda .. betul. I'm dying to change for a better person and tadaa , Allah sent me Iylia. A total stranger. we were so .. god sombong nak mampos back then and yeah look at us now , soulmate :) So when I read safina's tweet , I can feel that what she's saying cant be any true-er.

So yeah , safina , I dont always do post for people unless they're important or awesome. Like sya and Iylia. Guess you are awesome too ! :D dont worry about Iylia's or sya's feedback. They will eventually kill me but dont worry :D HAHA I think your tweets are funny and meaningful. I like to read your tweets. Didnt knw we are going to be this close now .. Thanks to SPM. Atleast ada jugak benda baik dia buat :P HAHA. We've known each other for .. only few months but I can guess you pretty well. Tweeting all day long and skyping 3 days in a row , that is something girl. Cos I tak kenal you sangat and yet I can be so open with you :) Whatever that I am feeling right now , It is something good. You remind me of Allah. Whenever that I feel down or whatso , I will always think that someone out there have bigger problems that I am. With that , I can relax and enjoy my life. With your story , I know that what I've been through and what you've been through are 2 different things. and I believe that we have our ups and downs in life.

You are funny. You are spontaneous. You are shy. You are open-minded. most of all , you are my friend. Though you are far away in Penang , I know we can always talk cos there's technology ! HAHA actually kan , you dah boleh tukar tempat dengan Iylia. Her boyfriend is in penang and yours in bangi. k silah tukar tempat. HAHA I wish you nothing but the best as you deserve nothing but the best :D I want you to know whatever you are facing , believe in Allah. As He will listen to every each of your prayers. How you remind me of Allah , That's how I will remind you of Him. How nice you are to me , that's how I will be nice to you. I would never hurt you. in any way. If I ever hurt you with my words , I am sorry. I want you to know that whatever happens , life goes on. No matter how down you are , there will always be that one reason for you to fight back and smile. No matter how happy you are , there will always be that one reason for you to breakdown. life. You got your friends , you family , your boyfriend and me. I will always support you. and you know that you can count on me. No matter what. I treat my friends all the same. I give them attention all the same. So dont you worry about my friends :D They wont hurt you cos you are a nice person :)

All the best in whatever you're doing now and in the future :D May Allah bless you and I love you :)

Iylia's quote

2011-12-06T12:51:00.000-08:00

when I found this quote , my mind link to Iylia :) why ? Because everytime I askee her to go out and look at the moon and stars , she'd definitely respond like ' taknak.' and Then my respond ' why ? Look how they shine for you, Iylia.' and both of us will laugh like mad people. HAHA

well , she will never go out and look at the moon. I sure hope when she's sleeping over at my place , there's a big moon and stars. so that we can look at it together :D Jangan takde pulak ea Iylia macam sunrise dulu t(-.-t) HAHAHA

:D

2011-12-06T12:28:00.000-08:00

Despite the fact that he wont let me eat anything with high calories , I still love him with all my heart. Its almost 3 months. within few days more. How time flies. It's been a while since my last post about him. Not that I dont have anything to say or whatso , its just that I have no time to make a proper post or whatso. Now that I have , haha I will make the best out of it :) Thanks fr the tumblr though :D love it ! :)

He is coming back today. and I cant wait. Knowing that we are in the same land now makes me feel much more better. I can feel that he is closer to me every each day. If I could run to the airport and hug him , I would. But I cant :/ But I will always be here and wait for him :) This is the moment that I've been waiting for since forever. To meet him. To be with him. To see him. To just .. be with him. I know whenever he is here , I'll be fine. I know he will make all the pains and sorrow .. dissapear. His smile , his laugh , his eyes , his lips , his everything , Its everything compared to anyone else.

I love him. I know for sure. His my bestfriend , my enemy and my everything. How can I not love him ? How can I not love this perfect boy when he is all I ever wanted ? I wanna do everything with him. If this relationship ever ends in the future which I hope not , I'd gladly and surely having an emotional breakdown for years. or months -.-' The thought of losing him is just scary. I cant deal with that now. or never will I can. I love everything about him. How sensitive he is , how funny he is and how perfect he is for me. I'm trying to be the best for him. cos I know he is trying to be the best for me despite the stupid distance and all. I know he is.

I love you. Welcome home baby xoxo :)

TGIF :)

2011-12-06T12:18:00.000-08:00

So today I woke up kinda early lol no. Then I received text from asyraf asking me whether I am free or not at night. and I said I am free. and then he went like ' Lets have dinner together?' awwww so cute laaa :) and I said yes :) and so around 5.30 I went out to alamanda and met him at starbucks ;D hang with him there for a while while texting and tweeting. god my life is a mess. HAHA Then while walking down to TGIF , I saw .... syera rosli and madi. syera texted me just to make sure and I was like t(-.-t) paling taknak terserempak dengan sapa2. haa amik kau. paling terbaik manusia paling kau taknak jumpa sampai mati -.- nevermind ad hikmahnya :) sampai je TGIF , order and just wait :) I was texting with 4 different people. Iylia , sya , safina and syera. uuu again , a mess. HAHAHA But thats alright :) kesian asyraf terabai. sorry ):

And so makanan sampai around 6.45. both of us puasa. we were like drooling dekat situ sebab dah lapar. HAHAHA its not even 7 ! omg dieee. Then tepat je masuk waktu , haaa amik. time tu tak ingat dunia dah makan. HAHAHAHAH ! within 15 mins , i finished my sirloin steak. told Iylia bout it. Iylia cakap tu bukan terer. tu pelahap namanya ! lol what so cute :D haha then asyraf ordered again. lapar lagi. after that , we ordered dessert :D brownies with ice cream omg heaven. Menangis makan sebab sedap sangat T_T And then we just hang at starbucks and jalan jalan and abang datang picked up :) sent asyraf home and balik :D

and .. I am sick. nice.

EST

2011-12-06T12:16:00.000-08:00

YES , I STILL HAVE 2 PAPERS TO GO. EST PAPER 1 AND PAPER 2. yes, chillax. just EST. lol whut. k I will study later. When I feel better... Bye :D

Fasya Gomez

2011-12-05T07:48:00.000-08:00

Thanks Iylia fr the pics :D

Haih , tak sangka dah habis sekolah dah. sedih ada , gembira ada nak meroyan pun ada HAHA. Anyway , This is Fatin Syafiqa Bt Ahmad Zulkifli. Dia suka fasha sandha and selena gomez. tu gabung dua2 nama lahirlah FASYA GOMEZ. aww comel gituwww :') k confirm dia tengah tapping sampai kuku jari tangan bagai patah. sorry sya ! :) HAHA

So anyway , babe, school is over. My believe me , our friendship isn't over. It will never over. That I promise you :) These past 2 years , they're years that I wanna remember the most. You've been good to me. We had our ups and downs and rough times and guess what ? we survived :D I am sorry If I ever hurt you. I really do. I love you babe. You are one in a million. If ada orang lain macam kau kat dunia ni , pergh aku takboleh nak bayangkan HAHAHAHA !

Thank you for everything. for all the memories , for all the moments for everything. I am forever grateful. Thank you for always proctecting me in everything. Thank you for always helping me out in decisions. Thank you for always bear with my moods and everything. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for letting me in your life. Thank you for everything.

Now that school is over , we wouldnt be seeing each other everyday. But believe me , I'd do anything to see you once in a while. I appreciate you a lot babe. I really do. I am sorry for everything if I ever hurt you and all. You know that I love you very much. Bear that in your mind and keep that in your heart. You are my bestfriend. And I hope this friendship will lasts forever. I pray for our friendship and I hope you do the same thing.

You know that I'm going to New York. I'm not going there forever so dont be sad. You'd be fine without me okay :) We still have FB , skype twitter and all to communicate :) though the time tak sama , I will work on something to communicate with you and the rest okay :) I promise :D

Sya , Thank you for the most awesome fantabolous friendship these past 2 years. Thank you very much. I love you :)

taktahu cerita senyap

2011-12-05T05:01:00.000-08:00

This is GENERAL. If you taktahu cerita that someone, shut the fuck up. You dont spread the story sampai nenek kau pun tahu. respect tahu respect ? so yeah. Have a little respect towards people. okay ? Thank you very much.

Ombak Rindu

2011-12-05T04:39:00.000-08:00

Hoyeahhh yesterday , I went out with family and we watched Ombak Rindu :D Woke up at 9 cos nak pergi at 10. I slept at 5 the night before so yeah ngantuk gila -.- sampai2 je terus masuk wayang.

I TELL YOU OMBAK RINDU THE BOMB !!!!!!!! I SWEAR I WAS CRYING LIKE HELL DEKAT KAKYAN IN THE CINEMA -.-' omg aaron aziz omg omg so hot omg !!

I swear Im so gonna watch it again with iylia and my friends ! HAHAAAHA and I got job at TGIF. But then , I dont think I want. haha

Thats all. I've been sleeping for days. tidur je tak buat apa2. HAHA kbye :)

bosan

2011-12-05T04:36:00.000-08:00

Didnt know that my days will be as boring as dead people after SPM t(-.-t) serious malas nak keluar weyyyh !! -.-'

Moment

2011-12-03T11:18:00.000-08:00

Graduation day , 22/10/2011 :)

Happy birthday baby ! :)

2011-12-03T11:16:00.000-08:00

So , thats my superduper cousin HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR :) HAPPY TURNING 18!! :D aww , we are all grown up girls you know :) mehehe :3 Have a blast its your day ! :) May Allah bless you and have a fantastic year ! :D I LOVE YOU :) Always have and always will !

Stay healthy and young always ! Will hangout asap okay ? :) Heeee Happy birthday again , Arinah ! :)

9 days more

2011-12-03T11:08:00.000-08:00

9 days more til 3 months and 6 days more til I see your beautiful charming face. I am .. Enchanted to meet you , love (:

Typical saturdayyy

2011-12-03T11:03:00.000-08:00

I slept at 2 yesterday. awalkan :) OH YES GOTTA BE AWAL MAN ! cos .. few days before tu I slept at 6. lolwhut. skype dengan safina. mehhee. Then today I woke up at 2 -.- slept at 2 bangun at 2. terbaik. Then bangun2 kak liyana ngah semua dah ada. mandi and kacau kak liyana study :) UMAR SO CUTE AWW :) Then watched TV and kakyan and family sampai :) heeeeee :D sambung lagi tengok tv dengan they all and then abang mawi tidur at my room lolwhut. then the girls , me , kakliyana and kakyan just tengok tv and all :)

Then the kids bangun and tea time :D heee had keropok lekor and teh tarik and we watched despicable me awww cute :D hehe then abang mawi , kakyan and I went to pasar malam and Dzul Classic. Then balik mandi and dinner. Had LAMB STEW SEDAP :) heee and we watched Inception after that :) heee going to watch ombak rindu with family tomorrow :D and Iylia , yes , I am going to watch breaking dawn and ombak rindu again with you okay ! :)

Hee. yes , pretty much my day. Didnt knw that my saturday after SPM is ... this boring. like t(-.-t)

outing

2011-12-03T10:52:00.000-08:00

So yesterday-yesterday keluar dengan sya and nan. woke up late. nak keluar at 11 bangun at 10.45 -.- habis mandi uncle dah sampai. memang towel sikat semua aku bawak masuk kereta. then aku lupa nak angkut shawl sekali. biasalah aku. dengan masuk takpakai kasut bagai lagi. k my day mula2 je dah macam sial. HAHA

Then pergi alamanda ombak rindu habis. last2 tengok breaking dawn. and yes , aku dah tengok. kene tgk again -.-' then jumpa sham , fatin , aliq and raja. sama row dalam wayang lolwhut HAHA. Then makan at chicken rice shop and then hang at starbucks and then dede datang. then went back to my place and then dede balik.

Pretty much my day. slept late again that night. oh plus , most of my friends in my group dah ada twitter and skype :D YAY :))

malas

2011-12-02T00:54:00.000-08:00

OKAY SANGAT MALAS UNTUK MENULIS. LATER LAH UPDATE -.-

banyak

2011-12-02T00:43:00.000-08:00

BANYAK NAK BUAT POST. Tapi malas. mengantuk. malas. lazy you know .. Okay amma start spamming the dashboard now :D MEHEHEHE :3

apa ? CHEMISERY?

2011-11-29T00:14:00.000-08:00

Haaa toksah nak cakap apa2. dengan aku mengantuk tahap nak gila dengan soalan experimant macam siot ,memang aku boleh berfikir sebenarnye -.-' dengan benggang dengan Iylia lagi , tu tak kene tarbyah lagi tu. ish esok je lah tarbyah. t(-.-t) k malas nak cakap dah. bye.

splendid weekend :)

2011-11-27T23:46:00.000-08:00

well , I still have 5 chapts of chemistry to go and bunch of bio to go so lets just say my weekend , AWESOME :D That's all :) Byebye :)

again , I miss thisss

2011-11-26T10:34:00.000-08:00

Jamuan PPIM , 30/9/2011 :)

days

2011-11-26T09:31:00.000-08:00

11 days til the day I can finally meet you and 16 days til our 3rd months anniversary. oh boy , I am so in love with you :)

:')

2011-11-26T09:17:00.000-08:00

Aireen , whatever you are facing now , or in the future , be strong okay ? I am always here :D I was touched that you tagged me with those words. I kinda .. cried cos I was touched that there's someone out there who actually loves and appreciate me for me :) Thank you for the tag babe :D and you know that I am always here for you :) always have and always will. I will always be here for my friends :) Iylia sure is lucky to have me :) But I am luckier to have her :D I am luckier to have her in my life :)

Whatever it is , I hope everything is alright now babe :) anything , just ring me okay :D

typical saturday

2011-11-26T08:37:00.000-08:00

Aniq :)

Riz :D

Anis :)

I woke up at 1 lol. then did nothing -.-' baru bangun and makan kakyan balik. and riz pun ada -.- adik abang mawi. tak malu pulak dengan tak mandi bagai. HAHA biarlah nak wat cane en ? HAHA then tengok harry potter ramai-ramai haha adik abang mawi comel :P malu :$ kalau aku tahu dia nak datang , time time tu aku siap macam nak pergi jumpa anaz. HAHAHHAHAHAHA !! ala ala macam sya and Iylia nak jumpa abang mawi HAHAHA.

Then habis tengok harrypotter , they went back home and I went online and skype with anaz's sister , anis :D haha serious lawak :) HAHAAHA then baru nak mandi cos nak baca doa awal and akhir tahun :) HAHAH Then after that around 8 pergi secret recipe and bought cakes for nan , dede , sya and pergi rumah dede and makan cakes together :D MARS SANGAT COMEL :D HEHE then had dinner at dede's house and then lepak rumah sya :)

Yes , tulah yang aku buat today. macam takde spm. kbai. HAHAHA

Imissssthis

2011-11-25T10:14:00.000-08:00

Athirah's open house . :)

Breaking Dawn :D

2011-11-25T10:03:00.000-08:00

So I woke up early. around 11. and mandi and all and all and online til tak sedar dah pukul 12.30 -.- auntie dah sampai and time tu haa terbalik balik dunia aku nak siap. main grab je shawl apa and keluar. Picked asyraf then borak-borak dengan asyraf and then sampai alam. You know what's the worst part ever ? I LEFT MY FREAKING SHAWL DEKAT KERETA UNCLE -.-' I was like ada something wrong ni and yes baru sedar shawl tak pakai lagi. teruk kan ? sumpah rasa nak beli shawl baru but duit bawak cukup2 je. pasrah. dengan rambut yang serabai yang tak macam anne hathaway langsung. last-last pakai topi. yes , I brought chemist punya buku , bio , ipod , ipad , jacket , topi and calculator -.-' and pencil. HAHA why ? wayang at 5 but datang awal cos nak beli tickets :) heee then dah beli just lepak at starbucks and study :D til 3.30 then had lunch at nando's :) heeee dah lama tak makan nandos )): sedihnya hidup. HAHA

Then borak borak and all and ... saw razi and izyan. HAHAHA serious lawak. then jalan2 and lawat hakeem razi at secret recipe and masuk wayang :) awal gila. HAHA then the movie pun start. I tell you , IT WAS AWESOME :DDDDDDDD yes. So Iylia , jom tengok. I tak kisah nak tengok lagi sekali. ending dia buat I tak sabar nak tengok part 2 punya. HAHA Then after habis movie , jalan-jalan again and went to The cream and fudge factory :) ice cream time :D mehehehehe :3 Then hakeem came :) lepak kejap and then he went back home. ada ke patut dia cakap I look chubbier. gila -.-' HAHA Then just jalan2 with asyraf masuk mph cold storage , famous amous , carefour. then while In carefour , i saw .. nadia's dad. pergh that time I was looking around. I dont want to see her. so I called her nak tanya dia kat mana and baru sekejap I saw her coming out from this one row and I terus cabut -.-' Tinggalkan asyraf mcm tu je. HAHA then nadia miscall balik. hell now im going to pick up la kan. HAHA Then we went back home :) sent him home and went back. pening -.-' HAHA

Next week on saturday he asked me out again. to KL is it or somewhere. HAHA then on 4 nak pergi ice skating dengan danial. HAHA wtv it is , it was a good day :) breaking dawn was AWESMAZING :D IYLIA LETS WATCH TOGETHER :DDD heee okay bye :D

heeeeeee :))

2011-11-25T09:29:00.000-08:00

Exactly. EXACTLY. No matter what how much they hurt us in the past , we will always take them back. oh god. maybe not everyone , but some of them. I would. I will. If It's Iylia Syahirah , in a blink of second , honey , I would take you back. IN A BLINK OF SECOND. cos our friendship is more than anything. You are my soulmate. You are my everything. and I love you very much. If It's Fatin Syafiqa , again , in a blink of an eye. yes. No matter what babe , NO MATTER WHAT, I wouldnt have a second thought of taking you back in my life. never. If It's Nan Hazeera , I would definitely take her back. If it's syafiqah shafii , I would. I would. If It's seramai , well .. some of them. Yes , I would. for some of them. gotta be honest. I would take anyone in a second .. I would .. If I could. but you see, not for everyone.

Oh yes. indeed. how many songs already. FML

oh the number 1 is always in my heart. Always. the second one , to be honest , frankly speaking , Iylia :) She's the closest. though she's like .. crazy and all -.-' but at the same time when I look at her , I know that I can count on her , guiding me all the way through. and I wanna do the same thing for her. I never changed for her but she's the reason why I changed. to become a better person. for her , she did nothing. for me , its something. something big. Therefore , Iylia , Thank you. No words. NO WORDS can ever describe how thankful I am. I am still in progress to be a better person. with your support and others , I know I can do it. Thankyou Iylia ! I love you for a thousand years :DD

A thousand years :)

2011-11-25T09:26:00.000-08:00

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed that I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years

I’ll love you for a thousand more

VERY NICE SONG :DDDDDD I LOVE IT :D

exactly

2011-11-25T09:23:00.000-08:00

I dont know whether it's because of SPM or what , but gosh I just feel like .. to dissapear from everything for a while. a free getaway and just dissapear. ... :/

tweet limit

2011-11-25T09:20:00.000-08:00

ISHHH dah boleh kena tampar dah twitter ni ! tengah best2 tweet dengan safina , shazlyn , asyraf , dede , razi , anaz and others kene tweet limit pulak t(-.-t) tweet limit is like .. dah terlebih2 lah kau tweet. ish nak buat cane dah semua orang nak tweet aku -.- ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH fck you twitter ! you just ruined my life iedhoiwefhoewfdjheofc -.-'

Ish famous HAHAHA

2011-11-25T09:10:00.001-08:00

Ish everyone is inviting me out. apa niii jadual dah pack. belum habis SPM lagi. HAHAHHAHA thats alright , I'll make time for everyone :D heeeeeeee :)

baru teringat

2011-11-25T09:08:00.000-08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGG TAK BELI LAGI HADIAH SENGET AND KODI DJOWEJHDWIQEJCFOEWQFINHEW -.- MACAMANA AKU BOLEH LUPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA --.--' AFTER SPM I AM SO GOING TO ALAMANDA OR ANYWHERE TO BUY THEM PRESENTS. GOD I AM SUCH A BAD FRIEND ):

a piece of something

2011-11-25T08:36:00.000-08:00

I'm counting the days to meet you. But at the same time I am so nervous. and I dont know why. Guess I've missed you so much since the last day we met. Though we're nothing back then :) I miss you. I love you :-*

I miss thissssssssssss

2011-11-24T07:19:00.000-08:00

Fiqah's suprise party , 23/9/2011 :)

IYLIA

2011-11-24T07:14:00.000-08:00

Click to enlarge ye iylia :) yes ... its about my mouth again -.- told mak what had happened , and mak punya respond ' masih boleh bercakapkan?' k .. sapalah qila dimata mak. mak sayang Iylia dengan sya je kan. kk takpe mak .. susah senang qila yang tolong bukan diorang. k cukup emo. HAHA so .. I told anaz bout what happened and his reaction ' FATALITY!' which is kematian -.- no , tak mati lagi. belum sampai peringkat tu. HAHAHA then anaz suruh prank Iylia balik. by what ? BUTTER ! -.-' HAHAHAHA omg that's the funniest thing ever. He asked me to wipe the floor with butter and let Iylia walk and just fall. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA !! SOUNDS LIKE A PLAN :DD

Muahahahahhaha :-* okay Iylia I love you so much. tapi nantikanlah ye :P Bye *wave*

IM GOING TO WATCH BREAKING DAWN TOMORROW WITH ASYRAF TUN :D YAY. please la ada tickets ! tak kisah depan belakang kiri kanan wa still nak tengok. HAHA but before that nak study dekat starbucks , ahh I miss starbucks :D heeeeeeee okay bye :)

Things after SPM

2011-11-24T07:06:00.000-08:00

since SPM lagi berapa jam je nak habis , bapak menipu HAAH I meant lagi berapa hari je nak habis , saya dah macam2 list dah berjelar list saya dah buat. ala ala bak kata Iylia ngan nan Cina punya skroll tu dah penuh dengan aktiviti2 lepas spm. uish excited sampai boleh mampos ni :O

jeng jen jeng ! :D

1.TIDUR 24/7 wa tak kisah hujan ke panas ke petir , ni first thing.

2. Online 24/7 sampai kau rasa seluruh pelusuk internet tu kau dah ceburi.

3. TENGOK TV like a boss.conquer TV macam tv tu ada nama kau.

4. Iylia datang menyibuk sleepover dirumah saya :D ni perkara wajib. Iylia banyak kesalah yang dia kene tebus so, sayang , I'm waiting :D *kiss*

4. Movie marathon with friends :D sya nak tgk harry potter. kodi nak tengok cerita hantu. aku pasrah -.-

5. HANGOUT :D yes ini pasti. PASTI. kau akan dapati muka aku ni ada disemua mall di Malaysia.

6. Sleepover dengan seramai. tadi dengan Iylia sorang. nak manja2 dengan Iylia. HAHA now dengan seramai semua :D

7. work :D

8. BBQ :D seramai dijemput hadir :D

9.Jumpa ANAZ :DDDDDD hahahahaha

10. well , probably going to just dissapear from everything. friends , internet and everything and just go somewhere alone. just to .. be alone. for the peace of the mind... yeah that should be okay. no phone no nothing. Just a free gateway :)

YES , That's my plans :D awesome I know. TAKSABAR :D

--

2011-11-24T07:05:00.001-08:00

I tried to forgive but it's not enough to make it all okay.

addmaths and physics

2011-11-24T06:20:00.000-08:00

hi semua :D haha so apa cerita dengan addmaths and physics ? meh sini kita sum up satu-satu.

Addmaths ? ADDMATHS ? jujur aku cakap , most of the questions boleh buat. takdelah aku buat sesi menibai semua soalan. aku dapat rasakan macam lulus addmaths but gagal maths. omg mintak dijauhkan -.- so paper 1 was hard as well. paper 2 was okay I guess. please please nak lulus !! then I went home and went to pasar malam with sya :) then balik malam tu sumpah ngantuk tahap max terus tidur and nasib baik dah study all physics form 5. form 4 2 chaps je tak. so just cover2 sikit :) slept at 10 and dengan harapan nak bangun pukul 1 tapi .............. hakiktanya jauh sekali. wa bangun pukul 4.30 -.-' Aku dah macam t(-.-t)

Masuk la hari ini. Hari physics. wa pergi sekolah dengan keadaan yang SANGAT tak selesa. kat rumah kemain sihat. kat sekolah pergh segugut tu datang serang macam dia benci gila kat physics. serious aku rasa macam nak guling dekat dewan depan belakang depan belakang. pengawas tak pengawas , physics tak physics , belakang cerita. perut aku ni macam nak terbalik sakit dia -.-' serious. paper 1 physics was hard. but boleh jawab but takboleh focus sangat cos this freaking segugut. sumpah menguji. dengan mengantuknya. terbaik. habis paper 1 , terus balik. walaupun hanya 45 gap. kisah. aku dah nak separuh mati rasa loya nak muntah bagai. memang tak ah aku nak wat drama kat sekolah en -.-' mak picked me up then approximately 10 mins sebelum dia panggil masuk for paper 2 saya sampai dengan glamournya :D then study sikit then masuk for paper 2. was okay. after paper tu pergi pejabat nak check markah koko :) markah aku dengan Iylia takboleh nak sama lagi. and so I decided , apa yang aku and Iylia amik together, if mak tanya aku or iylia , apa yang aku dapat , tu lah yang Iylia dapat. Apa yang Iylia dapat , tu lah aku dapat. comel tak ? haha then iylia ni hish aku tahu kau tak suka addmaths , TAPI takperlu nak pergi hayun buku tu kat mulut aku. dalam banyak-banyak tempat , situ jugak. kau tahu en gusi aku luka dia tahap maximum. kau hayun gaya bebas macam nak penampar aku sampai darah tahu tak ! -.- aku nak makan pun sakit ! nak cakap pun sakit !!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sabar jelah -.-

dengan gusi sakit pergi pasar nak makan. pastu lembap nak mampos last2 tapau makan kat dewan. paper 3 was okay. walaupun aku takbaca sangat , but aku ingat pasal wave tu. Alhamdulillah la :) aku nk lulus je. tak A takpe. Janji lulus. HAHA sya went back home with me. online and all. and then isi borang UPU. guess what ? turn out the time aku isi tu sama dengan Iylia isi -.-' aku taktahu kenapa but ish. aku risau lah banyak sama dengan Iylia ni. aku risau kalau kot2 share husband pulak OPSSSSSSSSSS !! HAHAHAHAHHAHA okay bye. today hari untuk watlek watpeace je dulu okay ! :D have a nice day peeps :D

fcuk

2011-11-23T04:11:00.000-08:00

aku takde mood nak update. penat pening nak mampos semua ada. fikir addmaths lagi nak mati erghdoewdhowefhcoec. anaz nak pindah korea. confirm. lagi macam hweihfwoeifhewfhoew. ergh not even a single thing in this world can make me feel better now except for him. ERGHFEOPWJFOEWJFOEWJF. nak study physics lagi. god wth life sucks. bye.

pasar malam

2011-11-23T01:54:00.000-08:00

cis baru nak buat post uncle dah sampai. going to pasar malam with syasya :D HAHAHA later wa update pasal addmaths :D BYEEE

I miss thiss

2011-11-22T05:31:00.000-08:00

MY birthday party , 15/1/2011 :)

takpe sebenarnye

2011-11-22T05:00:00.000-08:00

"kau ni asal aku perlukan kau je , kau banyak bagi alasan. orang lain boleh pulak kau layan."

..... sabar ... kejap ... sabar ... buangkan sifat marah tu dulu sebelum blog2 ni pun terbalik ... loading .... loading ........................

OKAY DENGAN LAFAZ BISMILLAH AKU MULAKAN.

FIRST, SAPA KATA AKU TAK PERNAH ADA UNTUK KAU ? SECOND , BILA MASA AKU BAGI ALASAN ? THIRD , KAU DAH KENAPA ?

Aku dengan kesabaran yang tinggi tidak mahu mencarut atau apa-apa. cukuplah sekadar rasa marah yang aku rasa nak laga kepala kau dengan kepala tenok sana tu. Listen up , this is the first time aku takboleh buat apa-apa cos I have to go to the freaking dentist and aku nak study addmaths. kau jangan banyak bunyi. kau nak cakap aku bagi alasan dekat kau ? bukan nak ungkit tapi aku nak kau sedar apa yang kau dah buat selama ni ! dulu kau cakap aku berubah. betullah tu. betul. tapi aku berubah kearah kebaikan. dulu kau cakap aku LUPA KAWAN. persoalan dia sekarang , sapa lupa sapa ? Semalam aku call kau just nk wish kau anniversary kau pastu kau boleh dengan siotnya cakap AKU SOMBONG. WEYH SAPA SOMBONG ? SAPA LUPA SAPA ? AKU YANG SELALU TEXT KAU. AKU YANG SELALU CALL KAU. KAU ? kau cermin diri kau tu sikit. jangan cakap sedap mulut. kerana mulut badan binasa. aku malas nak gaduh malas nak apa. aku tahu kau baca blog aku. and aku tahu kau tahu yg this post KHAS untuk kau, Ye , kau kawan yang tak reti nak kenang budi.

Baru sekali aku takdapat nak tolong kau kau dah cakap aku cari alasan and everything. LISTEN , AKU BUKAN JENIS ORANG YANG CARI ALASAN. aku akan buat kalau aku boleh ! kau apa tau ! Aku dalam keadaan sakit pun boleh keluar pergi teman kawan aku date , nikan kau. I'd anything to help you tak kisahlah kita dah tak rapat ke apa ke. kau ? kau ? pergi mampos sana. cukup ah kau sakitkan hati aku selama ni. please la. aku malas dah nak kisah but tulah , aku still nak kisah sebab kau kawan aku. seburuk-buruk kau , sebaik-baik kau aku terima. aku tak pernah tak reply text kau. if kau text aku balas. Kau ? Aku text ADA KAU BALAS ? kalau kau takat nak guna credit kau tu untuk boyfriend kau pastu cakap aku sombong bagai , kau jangan cari aku dah. kalau kau takat text boyfriend kesayangan yang paling kau cinta tu je kau reply text dia , takpayah ada kawan dah. kau hidup semati dengan dia je. serious aku paling pantang orang macam tu. text kawan text apa semua kau takblas. pastu kau bergembira text dengan boyfriend kau. lepas tu dah ada masalah , kau cari aku. KAU INGAT AKU NI APA ? ada masalah datang. senang kau tinggalkan. ada masalah kau mengadu. gembira jangan kata kau , bayang kau pun takde ! so jangan cakap aku tak reply text kau apa semua SEBAB WHOLE THIS WHILE , KAU YANG TAK REPLY TEXT AKU. KAU YANG TAK REPLY TEXT AKU. PASTU CAKAP AKU SOMBONG. IF KAU HADAP SANGAT DENGAN BF KAU TU , TAKPERLU CARI AKU. SUSAH SENANG DENGAN DIA. TAKPERLU ADA KAWAN.

Aku tak kan pernah tinggalkan kawan aku sorang-sorang. sebenci2 aku kat dia , aku akan tolong jugak. so kau taktahu cerita takpayah buat macam tau. sapa je kau dalam hidup aku sekrang. sama lah macam kau. sapa aku dalam hidup kau. kalau the only thing yang kau fikir is boyfriend kau. aku dari dulu mmg ada issue dengan jantan tu. sampai sekarang pun masih ada tapi tulah , kau takpernah nak try nasihat kan dia or fix whatever shit that is. Aku tak pernah suruh kau pilih. TAKPERNAH. Aku tak pernah suruh kau pilih aku ke dia. but kau sendiri yang pilih. You walked away without giving me any explanation. aku macam orang bangang tunggu explaination dari kau ! tunggu text dari kau ! huh , HAMPEH. HAMPEH. so dont bother coming back giving me excuses why you left. sumpah tak terima. kau nak cakap aku keras hati , tak baik apa semua. we're bestfriends for 3 years. SANGAT RAPAT. You torn it apart like IT WAS NOTHING !!!! Right now your explaination didnt matter. I forgive you when you asked for forgiveness back then. I did. so lets clear thing out.

After all this while , I WAS THERE FOR YOU. I WAS THERE FOR YOU. in the middle of the night and all and in a blink of an eye when you have someone new , zap gone everything. text tak reply , phone calls tak angkat , ajak keluar banyak alasan. thats it lah. sampai mati aku takkan ajak kau keluar dah. sumpah. SAMPAI MATI. aku rela tk keluar or keluar sorang-sorang dari keluar dengan kau. kalau macam nilah gayanya , takperlu ada kawan. kau kawin je terus dengan boyfriend kau tu. aku pun ada boyfriend. orang lain pun ada boyfriend. tapi respect lah kawan. orang text tu reply. kalau takde credit tu lain cerita. tapi aku kenal kau , kau akan topup sebab nk text dengan boyfriend kau. aku kenal sangat kau okay. kenal sangat2. so menipu if kau takde credit.Ingat , kawan tu lah yang akan tolong kau bangun bila kau tertangkup tertomos kat tanah sebab kan cinta. tapi tulah , kau tak nampak. kau TAKNAK nampak. what can I do.

Sorry for everything. I tried. but some things are meant to be broken. even how hard you try to fix it. I am sorry and I hope nothing but the best in your life.

first post marah without cursing. well done qila ! :D

HELLO THERE :)

2011-11-22T04:48:00.000-08:00

So i promised you to make a post about you. short , but very meaningful. Hai ruizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :D pretty nice smile you got there. sooner or later you'll be my senior in Uitm mehehehehe InsyAllah :) I really want you to be my senior that will make things easier for me and my friends. Goodluck in your second semester :) you can do this ! :D

Thank you for everything. for all the answers about how law works and everything. and most importantly thank you for ... being there for me in times of need when no one is around. Funny how stranger can be part of you awesome life is it :) heee stay awesome always ! :D I'm counting the days to meet you after SPM. we shall have cofffeee together and cherish the moment.

I love you , bestfriend. nothing less nothing more :D *hugs*